half empty or half full?

what to do on a HOT DAY!

2010-08-25T20:58:00.003+08:00

Gosh! is this the end of the world?!!!aiyaiyai...

so HOT! We should try save the earth dont you think?

there are days my eyes really sore ie. seeing irresponsible people dumping their rubbish in the river, littering, using tons of plastic bags

anyways... what do we do on a hot day?

1. wear your birthday suit?

2. drink lots of water?

3. stay indoor?

4.park yourself in a mall?

5.go for a swim?

My boyfriend made me a really goooooooooooooooood refreshing drink

" Peppermint Lemon-Tea "

Yeap! isnt he nice?

Here's an interesting ad...HAHA

catch what it advertises

5 "styles"photographer!

1.Sleeping

2.Crouching

3.Dancing

4.Kicking

5.Rolling

I think the "kicking photographer" would be a HILARIOUS one.....

especially if they are Muay Thai boxers.

Anyways HOT DAY2u!

tilt to balance

2010-08-19T01:17:00.006+08:00

is it worth the time to 'queue' ?

victims of mood swings may not be the spot any of us wana be.

most of us see ourselves as as "victims" not realizing that we ourselves at one time have leashed on somebody just because something is not right or just off the usual.

have this got to do with our belief or value system, culture?

im guessing its just "us",trying to fit in,

go where we feel, think, or know is right ~ then we opt to either adapt or compromise or leave.

however, nothing beats the learning curbs from failures, accidents and mistakes.

it tends to pressure us to decide ; an action, a solution, a route to take, a correct "word" at an appropriate time --well i don't like to decide....or at least i "try" not to.

simply because it helps to reflect and know who you really are... and correct where you can only do as much ~ YOU.

where is the tilt to perfect balance?

have we complained, whined and thought too much , we cannot see what is real and what is fictional? someone i know says its because of karma. i think i need to strike a balance in my thoughts and actions. too much thinking takes out time in my doing... and it is only good to live your life out 'meaningful' than a fictional 'normal-life'

after all we weigh our decisions and talking about that, not too sure how long i can last staying optimist, but each time it is hopeful, it stays

positive.

pictures

2010-08-04T00:30:00.002+08:00

pictures paint a thousand words they say.

it is so often we see couples cam whoring , posting pics of themselves on their fb...i know of some to went to the extreme of placing their pics on their desktop, in auto mode!

... then again--maybe not so now..cos i remember seeing folders LOL!

for the singles their idols,

for couples their mementos'

what can we value from pics? memories? 'a statement'?

for me, it can scar us especially if taken on a wrong angle...yeap you know what i mean.

anyways, back to painting, it saddens me that even some of your happiest moments can be your disastrous one when sweet memories goes sour...so what do you do with them?

i throw them away but somehow, there will be some left in the 'folders' to remind you of your past, your moments and pride you once had with them.

so have you search out your folders which to keep and which to post?

i hope none are in ' all to keep' folders and post what you 'are' at present.

drama queen

2010-07-21T15:40:00.003+08:00

so.............

are we oblivious about them?

i saw one yesterday.well its been a while since i encountered with one in public...

anyways ..having to face with many 'drama-queens' in my previous jobs, have helped me more in the past compared to today..cos the amount of patience i had to cultivate...

so enjoy if you are in my shoes and have lost your touch in dealing with retards here's for you to remember :) :)

one thing for sure you can definitely tell that they are really...really ... "retards" :D seriously! LOL. They try to project their bravery by ( i know this is so weird but here's what they do)

1.chuckling, or get people into their created boost their esteem.

2.talk very loud

3.pretending to be busy with their phones/iphone

4.smiling to themselves?

5.hacking people's facebook

6.creating a fictional 'partner' or 'admirer' for themselves in convos and even their blogs!

7.spending their money at places which they think can portray their image

8.acting that they are readers...

9.get sucked into romantic films or scandalous series ie. gossip girls haha

10.overly paranoid reading this blog ! HAHAHA

im sure you can add more to my list.

ONE thing when dealing with 'drama queens' is we often decide to ignore them or not.

some thrash them physically when they least expect, whereas some help themselves in destroying their image by simply

ignoring them. i will opt for this.

i have come to realize that the actions above are left meaningless ONLY when we ignore them.

cos think of this; it is not worth paying attention on them when the spotlight is - you.

of course we are all annoyed by them... but seriously it is worth your time entertaining them?

so remember when you are with 'one'

have fun watching their 'drama'... if you are not up to watch simply leave them to their retarded world,

cos we aren't that insane to join.

breaking the norm is ...

2010-04-07T13:15:00.007+08:00

Its been a while since I hunt for free tickets to premier screenings..it is the adrenalin of winning sumpthin, viewing a premier and being first in the queue. felt that rush before?
the other day i saw iron man2 on the billboard and I was like whoaaaaa ... i so wanna watch that.
titans was really entertaining.
what i really hope to win now is the date night..its up to you nuffnang! :D (read my post below this one~thanks!)

what do you think? if less is more is more less?

it was on a billboard the other day and i thought it was thought provoking.

at the park, i met lily.

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she is a disabled or handicap
i intentionally walked the opposite direction to feel how it is like to do beyond the ordinary. .
( did you know in the states people walk on the right side and we Malaysians walk on the left side. what i mean to say is ... because they drive on the right side of the road, even walking, they walk on the right side ... just observe and you will know what I mean.)
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so yea... i chose to walk against the flow, and there she was.

I noticed she consistently greet me in her same tone with a smile.

but the rest of the people at the park,
looked down,
minding their own business and
didn't bother to look the people around them.

...... then in the third round, i thought of doing something different with lily.
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I waved at her as she was approaching instead of smiling and saying hi to her.
guess what ?
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at the fourth round she stopped wishing me and instead waved at me.

her mom then walked behind her...

she told her to mind her own business...
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fifth round, lily looked at me - smiled and waved.

on the sixth round, she chose to be friendly with me despite warnings from her mom to mind her own business ( really i think the mom was trying not to annoy me as 'everybody else' was in their own world, minding their own business. )

I tried to communicate with lily and I understood why her mom reacted that way.

surprisingly lily thought the same as me too.
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on the seventh round, lily's mom walked ahead of her and as she came nearer to me,

I looked and smiled at her...
and she responded like lily.
sometimes we need to break the norm to free others from a mundane cycle ...
Lily broke the norm.. as a result her mom and myself were free from the odd & cold cycle..
why don't you try it out today?
gona see what else I can do to break the norm today..

My Date Night

2010-04-07T11:35:00.009+08:00

what do you write to win two tickets for , "Date night" movie?
here's my date nite with my soul mate Emmanuel Surendra.

i remember traveling on a 6hours bus just to meet him . we were very new in our relationship. my heart beat was really fast and minutes seemed light years !
I just couldn't wait to see him again. - - ahh finally in the arms of my sweetie or so I thought:)

we were both sending countless sms-es and counting down the seconds we would see each other....finally on my last count, "1..zero".... I saw sweetie leaning on his white car.

we were both excited,hungry & tired.so we headed for the nearest Macker's but on the way, one of the tires blew, the engine crashed ... and finally came to a halt at a gas station.

Hmm... now we have all the time to ourselves :D

Surprisingly ... I was not agitated or angry... in fact I was glad that his car died? Cos we would not have known 2 crucial facts :
1.we were both broke and probably we would have wash some dishes at the kitchen to compensate our meals?
2. we wouldn't have known ourselves
hahaha.... thankfully for some cents in my pockets i was able to buy ourselves 1 nice cold ice lemon tea and 1 bun from the kiosk..

so much of our nite date but the best one.

what you 'ideally don't have' is really what you need 'to have'. - - me

a day a time

2010-02-18T15:44:00.003+08:00

aha.

this is the new us.

we both had our hair cut& dont we look awesome!? hehehhe

...

really stressing out to complete my studies and my nose is like a leaking pipe!must have ate too much oranges ... hehehhe oh well like sweetie says it, " its soooo worth it!".

I enjoyed a day's pace . to see the end from the beginning is not enjoyable ya?

was thinkin to myself about monk's final episodes... if the writers had thought the beginning on monk's ending, it would had been a betta outcome.~~ well i change my mind.

I guess its nicer when we take it a step a day and deal with the bigger picture later.

afterall, what do we know about ...

our endings?

nobody really knows our endings but we know what we can do for that day and time.

have we done our part in making it better or worser?

gosh.really struggling this sem. .

its fun when i see it a day at a time..but time dont seem to allow me 2do that.

anyways back to recap on cny & feb14.... i had so much fun : jap escapade with sweetie which lasted for more than 2 weeks! can you believe it?

talk about good company, the more I know my sweetie (my bf) the more i see my flaws...weird aint it?

i guess the more we see the good in others , the more we come to realize about some room for our own improvement.. life! so full of exciting times isnt it?

a few hours to go

2010-01-09T14:03:00.002+08:00

another few hours till dateline and I haven't begun my paper!

ugh! no inspiration! man , i admire people who can just meet datelines, be like in an automotive mode. huhuhu...

can't wait for tonite cos will be at my bf's house for diner :)

aunt rebecca is really good at cooking! ah....briyani rice , curry and veggies!
i lurve apoms... idlee, the chapati and some pass on traditional pancake which I 4gotten the name...sweetie lurvesss them.

she really inspires me to look forward in the potentials of others. plus, her strong willed character always pave an incredible job well done. i think she deserves a noble prize. she feeds the homeless, invites them to her home for Christmas, she raised funds for charity, started a website for the church, http://www.gracecommunityservices.com.my but was neva credited for.

Gosh. now that's what we call humility.

(her pic is not there either... :( i should try to take a pic with her hehehhe) somehow my attempts have failed... hope tonite would be successful.

Her experiences with kids, and her passion for Christ ~is very contagious. *haha yeap sweetie you've caught it too.

I really think God should reward her with some gadzillion-dollar-reward but even with that amount of money I am sure, she would still give it away to the poor....hahahha man! talk about generousity.

Isn't it true the more we have, the lesser we give?

we see the unicef staff at Tesco beggin' for sponsors and most reaction I see from the crowd is
a cold shoulder.
Once my bf asked how he can contribute, they said through the amount they have set.
they are targetting big amounts and any amount we give.
so maybe that was their failure but ... then most people just .... avoid?

We had that experience when we did, "Spread the Warmth Project".
I noticed whenever we hold a charity box, people would automatically walk away.
Even though we do not mind the amount of donation.
I remember I was so tired and jokingly said,
"some 'sense' , please?"hahah
I remember a celebrity didnt want to give (maybe he is actually poor but acting rich) but
a generous Miss World Lina Teoh gave and also enquired more about the services.
Gosh now that is ROLE -MODELLING! shout out to Lina Teoh.

U know, some of my frens living in mansions, when you go out with them, they would be so calculative ...they cant even spend their friends some 'shit-char' hahaha
(chinese tea with ice which costs them only RM0.50)

i wonder if chuches are partnering to help out the 3 churches which got burnt down, 2days ago....
It would be great to see or hear about it rather than going for some 'vigil service' cos it is at this time, they need the physical support.
for some of you who didnt know what happen.... just click on the link.
http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/index.php/malaysia/48926-najib-angrily-denies-umno-raising-tension-in-allah-issue

Ok ... I really have to work on my paper.
will update some photos when I come back later.

tag a price?

2010-01-08T23:03:00.003+08:00

Unmerited favor ~ how measurable is it anyway?

Just the other day, my lecturer shared with us an interesting topic on "grace".
The many questions as to people that are unreached, have never heard about the gospel, do they inherit their citizenship in heaven? Some hastily stand on the side that Jesus is the Ultimate Way - so damned they'll b.

I questioned this thought, more so for the people around us who are undeserving... they are all out to murder, slander and gossip, so what have we to do with them?

somehow, how much grace are we to extend or not?

don't we all want the 'answers'?

strangely for this post, I do not think we deserve to tag a price for it because each of us walked the paths, paid our dues and have to move on....

or haven't we?

steppin' into the 2010 :)

2010-01-04T21:47:00.002+08:00

this 2010 is gona be

interesting

new

fun!

watched patch adams just the other day and was very inspired by it...erm still is.

it was like breathing fresh air.

i reflected on my trips to the states, pakistan, zamboanga...

I learnt that our needs are endless

so are our rants. hmpmhh!

anyways... m thinking about opening another blog.

where I can be free with my thoughts

and this stays with memories of 2009..should i or not?

Christmasssyyyy & escapades

2009-12-19T22:45:00.019+08:00

christmassssyyyyyyy.........

my Christmas feels more like valentines!
it started with a box of Belgium chocs

then a treat frm San Fransisco's Coffee,
followed by
nice Sa Shi Mi, sushi ..yummy! and then he surprised me with my fav ~ daisy!

(thanks sweetie~ lov ya so so much!you really make my day!)

we had so much fun laughin at some combo jap names with chinese surnames.
thinking about it makes me laugh :P

DECEMBER....definitely a season of lurve!
Compared to the past, I don't feel pressured this year.

Weeks before Christmas sweetie & me attended Choo's wedding.

Congrats again Choo!

Lurve is definitely in the air of DECEMBER ...Haha
oh yafor some of you who dont know this .. this cny falls on valentines day, FEB14...hehe season of lurve again!

FACEBOOK:

Oh my .... Im checking out some strange fb messages, bombarding on how righteous they 'should' be (christmas is not about this, or that is about the hungry, homeless, etc.I think these people have missed out BIG picture-- reality.

Aren't you tired of their whinning? Cos I am.
Attempts to be 'different' by rephrasing the 'What Would Jesus Do' when they aren't Christ. pfmmphh! DuH!!!*faints*

If they think non believers are moved by our compassion for the poor, they are so wrong. Sometimes I think these people are saying out of their guilt because they cannot give consistently on regular days except for these seasons; Christmas, Hari Raya, Chinese New Year or even Deepavali. Maybe they should consider Halloween since they fitted well for that season.

BACK TO CHRISTMASSSSYYYY :)
Weirdos a side,
I had a great Christmas with sweetie and ...fresh faces from the 'hood! :)) BBQ lamb, sausages, wings, pasta, etc..... seafood , salad was awesome!
The party lasted till around 3am..we were so exhausted.

More to FUN escapades, we got free passes to watch the Sherlock Holmes , premier screening.
Weeks before that free 3D screening to , 'A Christmas Carol' -- also a premier screening.
Woohoo!
Talk about blessing huh?

I thought Twilight was ok but my bf didnt enjoyed it :(
Thank gawd we agreed on Avatar , we gave it : 10/10 !!!'cos it was so entertaining.
The effects and set was beyond superb.
Just google up on them you will know why.

glimpse of our escapades :

"helicopter?"

fishing village

SO yea.. cHRistmas this year feels like valentines to me .
I had an awesome time with those near and far heheh , met new friends, reconect with childhood friends, discovering new places, food and people,
..but most of all I enjoyed my time with my soul mate and his never-ending surprises.
Im tellin you - - he is really.. really, really, good at it.

Thanks for everything, sweetie! Muack!

Love ya :)

and wishing you readers a great 2010

pics

2009-10-18T14:29:00.015+08:00

pics pics pics.. they paint a better story than words you think?
well..thought of uploading sum food pics of " first attempts"... :)
its fun ! the company - - is better.

here's for those who wana attempt to do the "chinese red eggs". remember to google up. it is not as ez as painting it red :P

oh yea.. this is for those who aren't chinese:
the red eggs is like a customary thing that the chinese people do on birthdays.

significance wise, im not too sure but i think its sumptin to do with prosperity?
but i did it for fun:P plus you can tell the next pic getting all creative and stuff. :P

dad's fav ("lam mee") birthday noodles was the other attempt.

red eggs, crab meat, spring onions, prawns, shredded chicken...YUMmY!
recipe? google!

Red eggs, birthday mee... it was a whole lot fun messin up the kitchen.

oh yea. I remembered talking about the pics i never got to load up. here is the place i stayed when i was in Tampa Bay, Florida. I miss coco(cat), buddy(dog) and the people there.

The lower basement (down the ground ?its really cool)is where I slept and the attic ..was the office I worked in.When I arrived at the States, it was pitch dark and seems to me like Sungai Petani ahahhaha (its like the countryside in Malaysia) so yea...

It was summer when I was there .. thank gawd the house had air-condition and so ... i wasnt complainin' but then again, Malaysia is summer all year long! lol ! so what is there 2 complain about? oh yea this reminds me bout this lady, she was like ,"man!this plaz is gettin' my body burned up,I cant think straight anymore. Its drivin' me crazzzee!". that was life in Tampa Bay , Florida.
slooowww AND eaaaasaayyyyyy.

tried to blend in with the pace but like I said in my earlier post... preeety hard.
i guess its the Malaysian city culture I was in...you know ..everyone is always in a hurry... they don't always entertain strangers and most of the time ...minding their own business.

whereas in Tampa Bay, things r a lil' slower and people are friendlier?
I learn a lot in the states. taking it ezaaayyyyy.

Guess it is never too late to put them to practice what I learnt.

recently the Sanborns were in town.yerps they were in Malaysia

Left to right: david, emm, art,
me, & ellen

they did judah ben hur in sib kl and pjefc - - it was amazing! at the end of the play there was a minute standing ovation!there was this lady infront of us wiping off her tears :) it was definately a blast! and for those who missed it? they really missed it :P too bad..ouch!

aight..gona stop here cos the loading for the next pics is just toooooooooo slow

reunion

2009-10-16T04:51:00.004+08:00

the Sanborns...
brings me back to the times in Florida when I was forced to stop working, to start breathing and recuperate from my work in Malaysia.

ellen constantly remind me to pace down my work cos there seem to be no end for me. and she was right.
it is like ...right after devo, it would be work , work , work. so much so I pretty much forgotten that I was in the States! I can still remember this one time when i worked late in the 'office' which was at the attic (its really cool - will upload the pic when im at my comp...) Art would say, "Jessica. Please go to bed. Its late." and I would say 'ok' but when i took my lappy to my room , I worked through the hours to get my assignments and work done right.

much have I learnt in the states, but have yet put into practice:
to pace myself and enjoy "time" with the people I love.

Art is definite a great role model for many. He wrote many great journeys he and his family had during his call to missions and his miraculous testimony of healing. It is called , "A Walking Miracle", which can be purchased in bookstores ie Canaanland...etc.
I really admire that man. He walks 10km a day and he never fails!
I have not heard any grumblings from that man when I worked with him...David mentioned that Art would thanked God in whatever situation he is and it reminded me how Job faithfully served God in his situation.

Sometimes the routines in life shapes us in a fainted way and so we have to dig deep in to discover their meanings. I guess not many think likewise especially people who whines at the smallest spots which was intended to complete a picture for them.
I am trying my best not to complain about my routines nowadays...and the reunion provided me a great jump to my next 'adventure'

= what a great - -family, reunion for me :)

hanging on a string

2009-07-19T02:04:00.005+08:00

what can be more happening than puppetry?
their life is hung on a string steered by the puppeteer but more so is the script writer.
we see many imitations of productions which fails to execute what which was intended.
can a life be animated into emotions?
perhaps it may differ in the nature of the purpose of bringing out a message but not so in evangelism.

are we entertainers or living testimonies of Christ?
are we teaching more people to clown around in winning people for Christ than to disciple them in growing in Him? no matter how creative we get, the bottom line in carrying out His message cannot be meddled with thick make ups and fake testimonies through the puppets.
if extremists can say there are no "Christ" mentioned in a song why so should the puppets and clowns testify about Him where they have no life to begin with.

at the end of it, the script writers are the ones who hang their job on the line.
Who is writing your story?
a leader , creator or yourself?

...still clowning and hanging on a string?
when would believers live out boldly as His witnesses?
which would be the ultimate choice?

what is history

2009-06-14T08:30:00.004+08:00

my fren asked me does not history shapes your future?
remember the same old cliche ,"if the devil reminds you of your past, remind him of his future."
no doubt he knows what is ahead of him but what is still ahead of you is his concern.
sometimes we are so engross in superstition that we cant be real anymore.
everything seems to be in a labeled box ,"spiritual attack", "betrayal" and "etc."
getting down to the bottomline,

our past can shape our future but it does not mean we stay blabbering about our past.
we cant say that we can do something about our future ignoring what shapes us now by our past.
balancing our thoughts and using it to the fullest would mean, not ignoring the changes, twitches, pains and reality of our situation. if we keep staying on the edge of grey, it brings us only self deceit and living each moment with a purpose seem aimless.

history: happy . flirty. sweet. betray. unforgettable . priceless.
what is history?
will bygones be bygones?
i dont think so.

i love my life!

2009-06-07T00:57:00.003+08:00

I LOVE my life!

So tired after a nice diner with my sweetie ,
ahhh still full , the nice juicy grilled chicken coated with cheeze,bacon & chopped tomatoes, yum yum and the 'mount of whipped potato' surrounded by veggiess!!! my fav!
Thank you for the nice diner. ...
& the blue berry cheeze cake hehe

B4 i sleep, just wana say,

I LOVE my life!!!
I really really really enjoyed tonite. Thanks again sweetie for everything.
Love ya :D You never fail to surprise me

acts

2009-05-17T14:01:00.004+08:00

cant wait till this exam is done.
a strange , ill feeling crept up when i read on baptism...

i remembered this person who spend most of the time plotting in a whole lot of mind game.
there was no doubt that deception was the game.
reverting truth into ugly schemes,
it makes me think why on earth is this life spared?
i remember whining to him about lives of the innocent ones, the new Christians and their future ...could it be that the cause for these plots, plans and schemes are caused by jealousy?

can a person continues in, deliberate or intentional sins and still escape from pardon?

then it dawn on me in Acts 2, matt 21:14,mark11:15-19,john 2:13-16....
all the prominent events to happen in those hinge moments. was necessary to orchestrate a bigger picture which would probably never be seen or heard of by myself or the ministry.

for that reason I finally come to terms that a new adventure awaits for those who earnestly seek Him.

ACTS....

A revealed purpose and definitely NOT for these schemers who are nevertheless the
faint heart ed...

pain is good?

2009-05-13T12:20:00.008+08:00

hats up 2dis lady in my class 4sharing a good devo.

compassion.

in a nutshell, she shares that it involves pain , risk & investment which results in healing for the sick, healing of the heart and whatever you name it, there it is.

but the most I gain from yesterday's class was not the devo.. but our lecturer's view on the topic:disappointment. how one's actions affects the "faith" of another.
we are all casualities of it.

often said, it is easier to judge and giving advices... plunging in risks, pain and a great investment which would transform lives yadada... to add on?
.. the psycho talks by extremist ... believe me, its very annoying to meet them.
and they somehow do not excite me. :)

if pain is all good, why the healing?
if pain results in successful outcomes, why are we learning steps to avoid mistakes?
if pain is an investment, why the little returns on appreciation? (false humility eh?)

it was a very long time ago when I shared with people (whom I thought at that time, was worth investing) that disappointments takes a very heavy toll on our spiritual walk.

Much as we say: to place it on 'God's altar'(it means to leave your burdens at an unseen place of sacrifice, or a creative imagination of a place to dump your feelings), have a priority list (chart in placing God first, etc) and living uprightly,

all in all it...

somehow mirror, wicked conditions of the human heart.
No matter how genuine we can be,
I believe the percentage of a pessimist view would have greater influence than an optimist view. period.
it's even more devastating if ego steps in..

but I'm glad one special person made a difference in my life.....
he broke the norm of disappointments, he helped me recognize that we have a responsibility in handling our pains.
I love him loadsss.
erm...nope I'm not talking about Jesus (can't stand this guy who posts up about his "friend" and trying to preach from the blog than acting real to his own peers, man its already so sad that he doesnt have 'friends' , let alone preaching about Him ?

We know Christ' works and word are irrevokeable , infallible and awesome but let's get real I'm talking about a person.

well it is no surprise that person is my sweetie. :)

how true that the people closest to us have a greater impact on us and no matter how religious , pious or devoted a person can be, we cannot avoid the pain of dispointments.
thank gawd, no matter what we do, we just got to own up & take responsibility in helping others out of the ditch of disappointments. He helped me :) thanks sweetie

i don't think pain is good but I do think it scars us to avoid making mistakes & it is not pschoing your pain into a so called good use (the maybes as some would say,that will help them in future yadada...)

recognize that the pain effects are bad.

bad bad bad

.. and we face disappointments every time.

though we cannot avoid certain pains like (this illustration is for mothers)child labour, or surgery/infection etc, there's got to be a wake up call for believers (Christians) to GET REAL.
recognise that we cannot avoid pain and it is not good at all on us what more the effects on others.

pain is soooo not good.. not good at all.

..looks like we have a heavy responsibility on our preaching...
disappointments are unavoidable however we can change the outcome

what should it be

2009-05-11T01:02:00.003+08:00

what is it like to venture into a new society,
where no one knows who you are,
what you do,
where you went....
how long would you think it takes, for an identity to be fully erased for an exchange of a new identity?

this were the questions raised in 'mom at 16'.
a show which call for a way notto cheat truth and be responsible. some opt to indulge themselves in religious activities, surround themselves with friends and family hoping they could cheat their way through carnal passions and desires.
can we really cheat our passions and desires?
what sin can we hide, God is unable to see and yet a new chapter we hope to find may not be what it should be.

toilet groupie shots

2009-04-27T23:23:00.004+08:00

we were on the topic about your convos being pasted in blogs...
was browsing through pics which was highlighted in the facebook and its funny to see these loosers posing infront of the mirror taking pics of themselves IN THE 1 UTAMA TOILET hahahahhahaha here's the side view of them

it got me thinking ...what on earth is going on in their head ? or that is if they have one)

takin'so many quirky pics

don't be a victim of "toilet- groupie- shots" cos it stinks :D
they do get really stupid each time they explore on various 'poses'
here is what you can do.
the next time they approach you, just tell them that you have better taste than degrading yourself by taking pics in the 1 UTAMA TOILET :D

datelines

2009-04-24T00:22:00.002+08:00

gosh
ive been juicing out ideas for my paper and man, its tough.. but not as tough as the other assignment. i guess when we like sumptin' we would go all out to get it done than lazin' around infront of the tv. caffein isnt strong enough and its gona be 1am soon , still no inspiration to complete my assignment which is due in few hours time....

sigh.. X men is coming :D yeah!
watched the MallCop movie and its a predictable ending .. more like to release off pressure from studying..it was ok. the company was better! :D

aight its gona be very lateeeee for me if i dont force myself to complete the assignment..
ugh datelines!

sticky bills

2009-04-20T13:36:00.006+08:00

this morning i saw many bills and posters, on abandoned buildings, trees, traffic lights and even street signs and im wondering where are the 'officers in charge' ?
do they really look out for the community?
cos we are talking about loans, adverts with handphone numbers, services and other details.
it leaves me to think that probably in every bill, posters and authorities were looped 'in the same organization'.

there was a film i watched called the 'american gangster'.
it based on a true story in America back in the 1970s.
A detective works to bring down the drug empire of Frank Lucas, a heroin kingpin from Manhattan, who is smuggling the drug into the country from the Far East.the scenes to eradicate corrupt officers involved in the circle of events was my favorite. man, how often do we see heroes like them, with such patience, wit, foresight and charisma in the stand for justice?

there were local heroes i admired - - -their eloquence, wisdom and leadership skills.
sadly for some , when they reach the crucial peak of a radical change, these leaders somehow resigned their post or are threatened in a game of plots.

some article annouces that they they were framed while others commented that it was pure blunder.im not sure how true were the reports but i guess as long as you are holding positions in between aces and kings, you can be sure to ace your way up for the empire unlike the joker's demented or inane remarks on the colors of the skies?

anyways, there will be many desperate 'gamblers' in the pursuit for temporal happiness.

sticky bills.

where in it lies not just 'service' numbers but the count of many innocent lives being victimized.

chats exposed

2009-04-19T14:14:00.003+08:00

..came across blogs with pasted convos. my goodness.. they are so lame!
first, they try to be sarcastic (which they aren't) then they rush to mention venues and lastly, hiding behind the shell of the famous quote:"sista-brother" bond in friendship but in actual fact, their hormones are raging in their carnal mind.

' what - a - loser'. stop being a chicken in a rider's suit, cos your feathers are showin' timberlake! ;D

haha

anyways ramblings here to show that, there is no authencity about the blogger and im sure, many irratated readers would gladly post up comments on the display pic,
"oh..please loose the tight pants , skinnies aint your thing and the other is - - your flabs are showin!!". ;P

unlike my fav blogger, he stirs up the curiousity, twisted, or unpredictable views of his readers and though there are 2sides of a coin where we know , some hate his sharp remarks , im sure the majority admires his eloquence.

so there you have it...
chats exposed. ;)

congrats :)

2009-04-18T18:57:00.001+08:00

hey choo

congrats 2 ya & adrian.
wishin ya a great and exciting chapter 2gether.

woohoo!

xoxo
jess & emm

series

2009-04-08T12:11:00.004+08:00

this month is - awesome.
series of events just.. floodin' the calendar...
next goal of mine besides spicin' life ;P would b emmmmm definitely- cookin'.
lurve the satisfied look when they consume my yummy-li-cious food.
b4i start on weird series, lets have sum happy series goin 1st.

chettinaad was the best diner eva! (i think in a few days some1 would make this their hype of 'events'.haha ) anyways, thanks to my sweetiee mom's birthday dinner was a success!
lurve ya!

will post up the pic when i hav the time.. but lately its just bz bz bz.
so yea.. next series? saaaaddd series...hmmph its sad to hear relentless rambles by various individuals how 'some' domineering people can be .
Not only are they over-doing themselves but they can create invinsible audience or seemingly fans for themselves ..wow :/ i wonder how psycho can the get? real pity weii, cos can you imagine the humilitation? i feel for them.. haizz

its like sum reality show?
for some: its very entertaining.
for me ? they publicly display...i would say horrendous performance in their blogs and facebook!
i wouldnt even dare to term it as talent.
...i wonder how many viewers are laughin' their heads off watchin' them.
man it was horrible!
wert were they thinkin?like i said earlier, they need a new cover.

positive thought: if william hung made it, we are definitely sure they too can make it ;P
' keep those chin up!hungs' :D

so there you go 'series'.
of course there are other series not written here ;)
some things you would prefer them reserved . dont we all have those?

;)

rumors! hehe

2009-03-22T07:30:00.003+08:00

LATEST topic:

..rumors :)

what ???
erm its ....
-a very interesting agent for fame.
-news we never know of or don't really want to know but they r things you wanna confirm about
-juicy gossips
-looks innocent in the beginning of convo
- "did you know", "have you heard", or "have you seen"...
-a great form of escapism
-creates attention, diverts attention to another person other than self
-hub for chatters

have 'rumor' reached you lately about someone else? or may be it was about you?

key lessons to think about:
what goes around, comes around.

next ....
LATEST series?

careless?

2009-03-15T22:07:00.006+08:00

its back to bloggin!

was in and out in some weird cases. nevertheless it was freaky....umm anyways. life =
free will and choice is sumptin we hafta make everyday,

have you ever been in a situation where everythin' around you seem like a concluded puzzle?
or still making up with the bits and pieces?

some believe in coincidence.
flashes of words i can think of: " fate" ,"accidental" and pious ones.. "His will".
can be very irritable especially when one quotes: "everything has its reasons"

so , what seem to be the answer for these puzzles?

weeks before she flew over, there were complications in her ticket...yet she insists on coming to Malaysia.

days before , all seems well. met new friends, exchanging life experiences with another,jotting new entries to her journals.
minutes before, she was talking with a friend who wanted her to speed up time and move faster on the road
seconds later, she got hit by a car.

so issit:
- the few months before that could change the outcome?
-the few days to add in more plans to her journals in delaying the event?
or adding a few more minutes in her walking ?

life is easier defined when accidents , death and uninviting events aren't at our doorstep.
heres the thing.
what if its just man/people/events are cases of carelessness?

not being careful in diets
not being careful in working lifestyle
not being careful in talking
not being careful in the companions we are with
not being careful with words
not being careful on the road
not being careful with time given

etc

...."be careful" , the next time assumption creeps in
cos it may just be a careless word, thought and comment.
the life puzzle above?
i think its just pure carelessness.
no need to be all deep, emo and sophisticated.
just be careful the next time you cross the road or whatever it is.

;)

Christmas Christmas Christmas?

2008-12-05T01:55:00.005+08:00

i remember walkin' in malls without the slightest ambience of Christmas.
it was plain dead, boring and uninviting.

hmmmph..... Christmas Christmas Christmas... anyways here's some updates :

... had a nice prayer walk with sweetie .... thanking God for every moment , individuals and experiences that shaped our lives.

this year is the most interesting one - for me.

taking a bold step with my life and best of all, journeying with my soul mate.
This year, I also got to see individuals for who they really are, learnt their likes, dislikes and the essence of their dream.

the worst peak of this year would be seeing lenses of others being distort by individuals who never hold on their word, fails to journey through with them their dreams and falsely envision them for a dream that can only stay illusive. these ones stinks! worst still: making blunders week after week trying to be someone they are not.

"christianity": their labeled uniform and malice their language.

their followers spill over to others that they are attracted by their latest gossips and continues to stay ignorant,who has never been edified towards the cross and do not experience the real meaning of living in Christ, sharing hope and Christ to others.
Here's their signature: Looping in mantras of 'no music' and isolating themselves from society so that they can acquired to a true pathway of so called , "righteous living". So sad. As in they cut themselves off from society and expects society to hear them out their "gospel".

one frame they had in mind serving others : prestige, fame and power.

strangely, I remember sharing on 'nails in their pockets' . . and so true that most of them do. the end of it? it definitely hurts but yet at the same time it shapes a stronger side of me to dig deep what is the real meaning to have compassion for these ugly ones.

This Christmas I journey with great joy, and excitement with remnants of gems & grateful to have known the best days of my life in grace has always been a school for thought, experience & wisdom.

a blessed Christmas indeed :) hehe

ahhh choooo!!!

2008-11-21T23:43:00.003+08:00

gosh...
afta long hours of non-stop studyin', presentations, gosh its really taking a toll on me
didnt feel too good for the past few days.... it could b bcos of the overtime ive been clockin..all just for .... A!hehehe

2weeks ago a "butch" or an ex lesbian was invited over to speak at our class.
oh my... how one' words, experience can turn a gender away....

anyways... im really excited about going out for a breather again :) woohoo!
hmmmph i wonder how long can i last with thisssss...........

*headache*
*nose -leakin*
*sniff- sniff*

hmmmmph gona rest now...

Hey I spotted YOU ;)hehe

2008-11-09T20:24:00.005+08:00

spot spot spot

* if you still cant find ...
just leave me a message hahahaha and i will help you

i will rate it 2#

2008-11-09T00:43:00.004+08:00

out of 5 i will rate Magdagascar 2 ... 2!
its not really funny
waste of my money but i lurve the company.

will be checkin' other films soon when im not soo tight with studies
* cough

had a really nice breather today - -thanks sweetie ;)
was rewarded with lurve-potion 31.
now this i would definately give :thumbs up.

...i really miss sierra mist
& ....wendy's in m'sia sucks big time.
compared to some "halal "- "ham"
wondered how they do that?
or why they eva come up with halal "char-siewbun" ?

strange eh?
owh... realised that some of my blog readers are from the states & else where .. if you arnt sure about the terms just lemme know,

;) aight gtg

chillin' bakin' workin

2008-11-07T17:37:00.002+08:00

pilin' assignments!!

but it all pays off when I got full marks for my paper!

woohoo!!

gotta work extra hard to keep the grades up though...

*tsk tsk tsk (can you imagine daffy duck saying this?short tongue ;p )

..to all the SPM students...take a breaaaather k?

fleeing to another country doesnt help..nor listening to crappy lines about end of days can't save you from your exam..heheh

plus stale stories of doin nothin , they promote in leaving you to some hair raising experience , is pure bull.

.. what ive concluded here is :

- start working hard for your grades even with the little time you have, study smart & highlight only those you need to memorize.

- know this: quoting or memorizing dead poets phrases , off their masterpiece to best suit your expression will bring you no where but only nearer to their grave. common learn to press on to the future not engaging in some history that cannot be undone. its stupid to psycho themselves in an illusion of possibilities within impossibilities . you understand? well i dont i never will understand them.. cos its a weirdoooos world.

ok time to head back to studying

adios amigos!

GO MOBILE GO MOBILE GO

2008-11-05T11:51:00.003+08:00

http://www.gomobile.my/

The Ultimate Mobile Style of the Year:

The last hot queues for NuffNag's freebies 50tickets to move it move it has led to another kinky quest of 'give away' 25pair of tickets to watch the bond movie.
which obviously depend on the member's luck in order to get it.
so is it the ultimately mobile style of the year?

Think again.

"Go Mobile , Go Mobile Go"

Haha

Dug out an old treasure

2008-11-01T13:57:00.008+08:00

I GOT TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT
MOVE IT , MOVE IT!

haha...
2 weeks ago I heard about the Tsunami of people in Jusco ,
Wan Utama from 8:00AM !! till 11:00PM . Oh my my my...
Yea for those of you who are not aware :

22 October 2008
infos on JCard thing: J Card Members Day Up to 70% Discount Exclusively for JCard Members onlyEach JCard Member are welcome to bring along Two friendsPresent your PINK receipts to get a RM10 Jusco Voucher for purchase above RM100 at the General Merchandise Store & Jeans Studio. Present your GREEN receipts to get a RM5 Jusco Voucher for every purchase at the Supermarket, Wine & Hard Liquor Section, La Boheme & Jusco Home Centre.

.....it was practically like Christmas in October! Everyone was buyin' stuffs they need or don't need .. here's the crazee part: i was told that there were even rubbles on pushin' trolleys at the right 'side' ?...maybe the next time they can invent some lights on the trolley for signalling? hahaha

fuh.

Thank gawd I was , so not in the scene.Phew!

so.....
Shop shop shop...
then clean clean clean...
haha.

JJ Plastic Bag? anyways im just quoting of this blogger: http://www.aswandi.com/blog/
photo by Eric Madeja from Treasure Images

Aight.Back to spring cleaning.
Tedious job of sorting old stuff & new ones...
spring-cleanin is not that baddddd after all.
Get the old out , replace with the new woohoo!!!

but then you know that there are just some stuffs which are irreplaceable ;) & the memories with it.

Here's the dug out treasure.
The very first poem in the uth magazine / newsletter 2004...

by..............................................

(drum roll )

(Ka ching ! $$$$)

Gideon ho !
(hey gideon, google has your pics! hahaha)

now this i rate original unlike some bloggers trying sooo hard to be someone they aren't .
hats off 2ya!

TASK GIVEN TO WRITERS: 1 TIM 4:12
WRITING GENRE :THOUGHTS, POEMS, TESTIMONIES, OTHERS

" Being young, so carelessly perceived as a frivolous one,
so easily looked upon with disdain,
often revered by none,
abundant in affliction and pain,
superficial in understanding,
superfluous in words,
such are the epitome of the boastful and vain,
knowing not that they know not that they are nothing but a pain,
so in all I do and in all I say,
I'll strive to ensure, that I'll be exemplary in every way,
strive for that treasure which knows neither blemish nor decay.
With a speech refined and pleasing to the Father,
Lauding His goodness all my days with a life,
Yielded at the altar,
And His love radiantly ablaze ,
Faith shall be the key,
To be your sanctuary ,
Pure and spotless in purity"

Ever been in one of those?

2008-10-29T09:42:00.008+08:00

"hyped " talk of the day.

I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!

I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!
I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!
I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!
I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!
I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!
I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!

in the previous post, chat box and *someone hadha twisted view of it
had a good laugh with my bf about the anonymous fella: you sure have a tttwwwwwiiissssttedddddd mind.

I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!

SUMMARY taken from :

elease Date	13 November 2008
Language	English
Classification	U
Running Time	N/A
Director	Eric Darnell, Tom McGrath.
Cast	Ben Stiller, Chris Rock, Jada Pinkett-Smith, Andy Richter, David

In the highly-anticipated sequel to “Madagascar,” Alex, Marty, Melman, Gloria, King Julien, Maurice and the penguins and the chimps find themselves marooned on the distant shores of Madagascar.

In the face of this obstacle, the New Yorkers have hatched a plan so crazy it just might work. With military precision, the penguins have repaired an old crashed plane—sort of. Once aloft, this unlikely crew stays airborne just long enough to make it to the wildest place of all—the vast plains of Africa, where the members of our zoo-raised crew encounter species of their own kind for the very first time. Africa seems like a great place…but is it better than their Central Park home?

ENJOYYYY:

I LIKE TO MOVE IT , MOVE IT WITH MADAGASCAR 2!

2008-10-24T10:11:00.001+08:00

October 31

2008-10-22T13:48:00.009+08:00

Halloween is nearing and already there are gloomy incidents happening...

Have you ever wondered on its history? well in wikipedia :
i know some of you would skip this part ... not much of a reader eh?

Halloween has its origins in the ancient Celtic festival known as Samhain (Irish pronunciation: [ˈsˠaunʲ]; from the Old Irish samain).^[1] The festival of Samhain is a celebration of the end of the harvest season in Gaelic culture, and is sometimes ^[2] regarded as the "Celtic New Year".^[3] Traditionally, the festival was a time used by the ancient pagans to take stock of supplies and slaughter livestock for winter stores.

The ancient Gaels believed that on October 31, now known as Halloween, the boundary between the alive and the deceased dissolved, and the dead become dangerous for the living by causing problems such as sickness or damaged crops. The festivals would frequently involve bonfires, into which bones of slaughtered livestock were thrown. Costumes and masks were also worn at the festivals in an attempt to mimic the evil spirits or placate them.^[4]^[5]

well in short :
for Roman Catholics its like All Saints Day
for Protestants its like Reformation Day :a day of remembrance and a time to pray..

Lemme help you paste what you would have click in wikipedia
Here goes:

Fundamentalist variety, are concerned about Halloween, and reject the holiday because they believe it trivializes (and celebrates) “the occult” and what they perceive as evil.^[51] A response among some fundamentalists in recent years has been the use of Hell houses or themed pamphlets (such as those of Jack T. Chick) which attempt to make use of Halloween as an opportunity for evangelism.^[52] Some consider Halloween to be completely incompatible with the Christian faith^[53] due to its origin as a Pagan "festival of the dead." In more recent years, the Roman Catholic Archdiocese of Boston has organized a "Saint Fest" on the holiday.^[52]

Some Wiccans feel that the tradition is offensive to "real witches" for promoting stereotypical caricatures of "wicked witches".^[54] However, other Neopagans^[who?], perhaps most of them, see it as a harmless holiday in which some of the old traditions are celebrated by the mainstream culture, albeit in a different manner.

...I do know some portray themselves like wizards and witches , spell bound by glut, twisted temptations and irrefutable beliefs then they would leave you in suspense, and plots only to destroy you, rob you and in the end murder you. so better watch out when you are invited to their Halloween parties cos "who cares!" ,"..does it matter ? "and"wt * " ..heehe left it (*) for ya to express whatever it may be.

always leads to a glooomyyyy end....

"HAAAllllloooowwwwww eeennnnn to you TOO"

Random-ness 2

2008-10-21T20:23:00.006+08:00

her's his

hehehe "44"hmmm mohawk

hehe

titus in action

random-ness with you

2008-10-21T13:23:00.004+08:00

Hey sweetie!

You are the best :)

thanks for being there with me , your prayers & encouragement refreshes me daily.

thought of posting this up be4 i upload Random-ness (2)

Lurve you loadsssssss!

Random-ness 1.

2008-10-20T11:50:00.004+08:00

Life gets sweeeeeter & adventourous
each day!

;) yaha!
like I said ... ahhh hemmm havin wayyyyy too much fun with him
lurvin every moment!
will be uploading moreeeee random shots...

here goes... hehehe

"THAT way!"

hahaha he got caught by the guard.."oi!!"

so he had to come down from posing with them

"oookayyy ...'Bahagian khinzir' ...tha-dha- wayyyy"

Non-halal food: 'DIM suM '

WOooooHoooo!!

HOT ...HOT ...HOT!

coconuts?

ahhh hemmm i sooo wan to eat thiissss
hmmmm yumm yumm

fuyoh this is somethin' - - ooohh---yummm

i soo misss this

hmmmmm

misssssionsss ?

yeha!

to be grouchy or not?

2008-10-18T13:44:00.008+08:00

tired-tired-tiredddddd of ....chores, assignments, duties, exams...sigh.....
few more weeks to go and woohooo!!! no more grouchy-days.so sucky when all your work turns you over to only more co$tly adjustments.

oh well some days aren't a breather so why pay so much attention to its gloominess when there will be days we shape the happier-endings?

- - guess .. its a 'grouchy not ' :P

here are some tips from : lover,besties, websites..
which may work out on grouchy days..

1.Shuffle. hahaha...

2.Treat yourself with something cold & sweeeeet. eg. ice-cream!... " I scream!"

3. Sleep.Shut everyone, everything downnnn.z z z z zzzzzzz

4.Jog back to good memories.“relive” those experiences. Memory works in that the more you think about something, the more it becomes ingrained in your mind.

5.Exercise! it releases endorphins which immediately makes you feel better. It gives you a long term healthy habit to go to whenever you feel unhappy.

6.MOoooovies!Silly shows helps. :))))

7.Look forward for a new tomorrow. :P

you do the math :p

2008-10-04T14:43:00.005+08:00

"Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted." -Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

Amazed

2008-10-03T11:06:00.005+08:00

Found an old vid in U-tube
Kevin Jonas' testimony :)emoooooo

25.09.08

2008-09-30T10:15:00.018+08:00

hmmph... 25th September 2008

got a call that he will need to get the cyst removed in University Hospital..bulk text messages were sent out to family members, uth church, cell, church, pastors, leaders to pray for him.

Text msg:

Prayer request for Emmanuel: Goin4an operation tis fri,(26/9) to remove a cyst fr his back -Uth Church

thurs : u0620
it is sad to see quite a number of elderly people came on their own to check in for surgery.
there was this elderly 'Indian' man, he went up and down the hall on his own (though i admired his independence, i think it would be better if there was another person to accompany him).
..at one time, he had gone else where & the doc called for him. thats how we knew he is a *singh*

doc :

"Kak mana Juswan Singh ?"

nurse :
" 'Just-One' Singh tadak, cuma Pradip Singh saja!"

the funny thing is this : when they call for Pradip Singh, an old lady raised her hand.
The son look at her and said ,

" You are not Pradip Singh la ma.."

hahahahahah..anyways while waiting for *u0620, a doc or practioner (i duno la -- but she looks inexperience wei!) she drew like ...a lot of blood fr Emm. worst still, she spilled a BIG drop on the floor!
*bore-dughh!*aduhhhhh.

we waited for approximately more than 7hours just to get to *u6020 (*level 6, bed 20) but then with Emm, its NEVER borin'. haha.. & so time pass quickly ;) so it wasnt that bad.

before Emm was told he had to puasa after midnite :

- Emm had to go for an x-ray,
- 3 surgeons checked his back for almost 7times?

finally after the longgggg wait, we finally got to *u0620

puaaaasaaaa fr midnite(fasting) till 3pm the next day (my my..)
knowing hospital food can be quite moderate in their seasoning, and since he can have ANYTHING :) b4 midnite got for him food,drinks , watermelons & some extras as he requested for his roomates.

'pradip singh' is the best. ( remember the singh in the beginning of the story?haha yups he ended in the same ward as Emm.) the fierce , macho looking guy some how cannot match with his voice!
he sounded like a transvestite!

heheheheh ...but then again hats off to the senior guy.

It aint diner till the man farts it all out.
Next to Emm's bed, is an Indian who got diagnosed with bone cancer and he cant move on his own.

dangerous man. very dangerous.

we were about to eat when , the stench, filled the entire ward.
- - he poo-ed.yerrrrrr!

the emergency button, alarmed the ' diaper team ' & whoever is able to move? - - to save themselves.

" ..please help.."
We feel for him. He had to be fed and bathed.
There was one time, he called for Emm.
The nurses did not attend to him so he called Emm to help him move his right leg up and down.
so Emm helped (lurve you loadssss)

4am (fri surgery day)
Thank God for 4am.

the bone cancer Indian man(i forgot his name) was cryin in pain cos the nurses were rough when they cleaned him.

(very creeeeepyyy actually. you can hear screams from other wards during that time cos the nurses cleans up other patients as well who cannot move on their own..its really creepy & heartbreaking oso)

During that interval we couldn't sleep so I gave Emm some buns since breakfast is only served much later.

Breakfast hour arrived.
A nurse gave Emm a new instruction

hahah! gosh good thing he had a bun, a drink and so he was all ready to fast till time for surgery. what we didnt know was, again they changed the hour for surgery. it was pushed earlier to 12noon.

45mins ?
Emm was told that its only a minor surgery so .. he will be on anaesthesia from waist down but when they did an op on him, the surgeons found out there was more to a cyst... 7 cm long?! here's the thing.
im outside of the surgery room thinking its only 45 mins & he didnt come out.
Got so worried. went up to level 6 (the surgery room is on the 2nd floor) thinking that i missed him when he got out.
But *u0620 was empty~
so went down and waited.
3 hours passed . panicked i wanted to intercom the nurse in the surgical ward to update me on Emm's progress.
Just when i was about to press the intercom, "superman" got rolled out.
He was smiling.
What a relief!

Kicking in about 6hours time
The nurses were highlighted about Emm's open wound (yup it is not stitched up :P )
talk about
"superman" God is really gracious and awwweeesome
The doc highlighted to the nurses to give Emm , pain killer jabs cos Emm would feel the pain after the 3rd hour from the time he got out of his anaesthetic condition, and the anaesthetic will only completely wear out on the 6th hour.

so i was believing for a miracle.
sending bulk smses , to request Christian family members and friends to pray for him.

miracle did happen!
he didnt need the pain killer and not only the surgeons were surprised... you can imagine the nurses coming in and out (approximately 7 times asking if he needed a jab or not)
superman indeed ;)

Among other testimonies, still the one thing I thank God for is His presence with Emm and me through the hours of pain, laughter, worries and indeed, when you can't hold on to tangible help, you can always hold on His promises that nothing can separate His love for us.

Lurve you sweetie.

cute , faithful, cuddly...friend

2008-09-22T13:56:00.008+08:00

dogs vs cats. in my view, dogs are friendlier , faithful compared to ..
ahh hemm snobbish, lazy cats...

But....

my views have changed when i met this cat.
i have to admit, this cat is not the ordinary. haha supa-active, lurves being manja-ed, clean, smart (toilet trainned! whoa im impressed!understands human language and yess..

this cat is healthy & 'fit'(there i said it.haha)

cute , faithful, cuddly... friend :)

lurve ya

man shall NOT only live by thosai and idli alone, but by appam too!

2008-09-22T13:16:00.005+08:00

...past few posts have been food eh?
cooking is definitely an art and an expression to show your love or narrates 'a story' :)
i know this part of the story: Sri Lankan & South indian cuisine - - my fav!woohoo!!!

my bf's mom not only can make great thosai , idli but also nice appams!
nothin beats home cook food and freshly made appams.
i lurve the thin crispy crepe-like edges and it is my first time trying 'egg appams' :) served with milk...reminds me of oreos with milk! haha
pic of appam with egg.so nicely done eh?

like i said, 'she rawks!'

Appams, appams, appams... :)

man shall by NOT only live by thosai alone but by idli too!

2008-09-22T12:06:00.008+08:00

pic 1. Idli :p yum yum!!!

pic2: Green chutney! (far right : Fish Curry)

hehe.... man NOT live by thosai alone! but by idli too!

cooking is an art.

not only is my bf's mom good in making thosai, she makes awesome idlis!

idli served with2 side dishes: hot green coconut chutney (is like a consistency of salsa ) & fish curry.

now now, ive not tasted fish curry this good before.

Lurveeeee spicy food! ..oh and the cook!

muacks!

fix it.fixing it.in the fix.

2008-09-18T09:29:00.009+08:00

devo, devo , devo.

the write ups below is my devotion today.
felt like a punching bag yesterday when cornered to an edge of helpless situation..the condition of our nation and individuals.was browsing through meanings, exegesis, text & trying to understand the text for verse 9-12 and here's what we can learn in times of repentance of a nation.

the choice to ignore or making a difference.

Outline for Isaiah58 -66 :Everlasting Deliverance and Everlasting Judgment (chs. 58–66)
- False and True Worship (ch. 58) We were told that about 700 B.C.ago,Israel had fallen away. Despite the many calls issued by prophets sent by God to them to repent and to return to the Lord, the people of the land, for the most part ( just like most of us..) continued to ignore the righteousness and justice of God. Because of this, the nation would suffer great losses at the hands of cruel enemies.

the question is do we have a role to play in a big nation?

we hear many times one vote makes a difference.
one hope .
one decision.
one vision with
one major effect or an outcome for
one nation. Here is a conclusion i have drawn from my devo for verses 9-12

spiritual renewal in God.

coping in a shift far beyond the norm.
we should opt to reflect on our role in times of shifting beyond the norm...which weighs our "spiritual standing"inbeing renewed : passively or actively

True Story
Man A, cannot 'drive' using a normal car ever since his tragic accident and so should he decided to drive on the road one day, he would have to buy a 'special' car built for disabled people. ..the thing is , this guy did not want to purchase a car to cope with his driving desire. he just like the idea that he can still "drive" on the road.
Hes an active member with a passive role.

renewal in God forms 2 routes :
-for active
-for passive

we have been in both routes. for some - -we have become extremely active. for some passive. however the main point for today's devo is not about being active or passive. its about recognizing age old behavioral patterns in our Christian walk or our role in times of shifting beyond the norm.

behaviors pointed in Isaiah about change to take place in our nation, we should begin to contribute in first a personal change and do away with :
1.yoke of oppression (look more into the context here for oppression)
2.pointing finger (blame game)
3.malicious talk (we are far better than them)

the conditional change is as follows :

'If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
with the pointing finger and malicious talk,
and if
you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,

then only we see the change as it cont's in verse 10 ..

then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.
The LORD will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.
Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins and will raise up the age-old foundations;
you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls,
Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.
Isaiah 58:9-12 NIV

so qualities for Today's devo in becoming more like Christ are:

(1) repairer of broken walls
(2)restorer of street with dwellings.

are we a generation of 'suckers 'or people living in ignorance during times of repentance?
or are we 'renewed, transformed , participants' making a difference for our generation during times of repentance?

..man shall live by thosai alone! woohooo!!!

2008-09-17T10:09:00.009+08:00

chapri! thosee! thosa! pollo!.. thosha! thoseh!thosai!

woohoo!! NICE!

ah hemm...

Did you know that Thosai is rich in carbohydrates and protein?
my ..my ...my....i just had the most supa nice thosai made by my bf's mom.

she rawks!

Varieties..varieties .. varieties... for you thosai lovers out there!yum yum

Egg -spread with an omelette.
Chilli - chilli powder is spread on the thosai.
Onion - chopped and sautéd onions are spread on the thosai.
Ghee (thuppa/neyyi) dosa - ghee is used instead of oil while frying the thosai.
Butter - butter is used instead of oil while frying thosai and a small amount on top of it while serving.
Roast - the thosai is spread thinly and fried until crisp. * owh...i had this one:p
Family roast - a long thosai which can be spread over 2 or 3 feet.
Paper - a long and very thin delicate dosa which can be spread over 2 feet.
Green - a thosai stuffed with fresh vegetables and mint chutney.
Chow-chow - stuffed with (Indian flavored) Chinese noodles. *this one may b interesting eh?
Cheese - stuffed with cheese.
Masala -stuffed with spiced potatoes (famous in South India)

food ... food ... food
how you make one so loved, so full & contented.
woohoo! thosai !

banana test

2008-09-15T15:31:00.007+08:00

There is a very, very tall coconut tree and there are 4 animals,
a LION , a CHIMPANZEE,a GIRAFFE and a SQUIRREL

who pass by.

They decide to compete to see who is the fastest to get a banana off the tree.
Who do you guess will win?
Your answer will reflect your personality. !

So think carefully and try and answer within 30 seconds

Got your answer?

Now scroll down to see the analysis.

If your answer is:

Lion = you're dull.

Chimpanzee = you're a moron.

Giraffe = you're a complete idiot.

Squirrel = you're just hopelessly stupid.

A COCONUT TREE DOESN'T HAVE BANANAS!
Obviously you're stressed and overworked. You should take some time off and relax!

left bare.

2008-09-13T16:28:00.005+08:00

scenario 1.
what is left hidden aren't always kept silent.
even the dead, speaks! somehow, somewhere, your secrets are out and there's no way to take cover..spills from various 'frens' or whom you think is trust-worthy stabs right behind u, and then left aimlessly , wounded & bare.

it is best to think twice when intention to stir, create or "psyche"a situation (im referring to the "loud" ones haha)because somehow at the end of their story, what it seems to be the edited scenes in their convo may just turn against them as the highlight, headlines from their own past.

scenario 2.
you are taught to be optimistic and this mentality will fend you should you fall in the midst of accusation because nothing can beat the good image and standard you have progressively set...but then here's the twist. what was not told to you is that
the accusation do not come from the people you hate or the enemy. as cliche it seems:it is those whom you trust,work with and believe in.

all your dreams, hopes and encouragement for them turned into daggers and they are repeatedly thrown at you.

lies eventually formed-a *belief.. and that *belief eats you, alive.

hmmm left bare for experience? or plots? or a destined journey?

b * tch y , b*tch y...

2008-09-11T09:46:00.014+08:00

our mind completes the sentence , to a particular, perceived meaning.as for me,ive been noticing the increase number of b*tch-y girls.

behavioural patterns:
- walk and talk 'loudly' about false / empty future engagements (to psyche the listeners to work or be on their side of the story.
- addicted /craves for attention
- in and out of mad 'crushes'
- gossips on something new that they made up just to create a convo..
- controlling & manipulative

the stench of lowwwwww self esteem issue led them to ride on false humility and often times they revert to "religiosity" for comfort.

so ..what we think, carries the meaning of the word.

in my view,these people aren't who they are,
if they don't deal with what they have become.

so... a lil experiment: did you see (*) as

(1)butch y

Butch and femme (also spelled fem; originally a French word for woman) are terms often used in the lesbian and gay subcultures to describe, respectively, masculine and feminine traits. - wikipedia

or

(2) bitch y

has long been in use to refer to a woman in contempt, as shown in an 1811 dictionary which describes bitch as "the most offensive appellation that can be given to an English woman, even more provoking than that of whore. - wikipedia

so .. it is true then that meaning to words is made up of what we want to read, see or believe it to be...

b*tch y , b*tch y .............................

..somebody's watchin' me...

2008-08-27T10:44:00.011+08:00

haha hilarious!

hmmmmm ...'feels like ...somebody's watchin....?'

VERSION 1

VERSION 2

confuse

2008-08-19T10:43:00.010+08:00

Met them?

Upfront: docile, seemingly innocent, but very sharp in advocating hidden stuffs Basically, anything that benefits the -'self'.The inability to stand on any side and the deep interests of twisted truths, sure make great them the best script writers :))

would they be the 'cowards'?

truths that may or may not surface: as to why they aren't as bold as they appear to be in taking on any sides,leads us only to think that it's simply because,such attempts is considered - - too much of an obvious 'statement'.

smart move? maybe.. but for some it is an unmerited value of self which disintegrates the morale..and eventually those cowardly value sinks in because of the choice in staying afloat in those Grey areas; leaving them feeling undecided & making sure that they are always safe in the hidden agendas , while leaving the rest around them - - confuse.

FUNK kill

2008-08-05T10:27:00.001+08:00

Pre-take-off announcement on a China Southern Airlines Flight.

This is a true account of what was heard on a recent flight from Shenzhen to Qingtao.
Chinese Air Stewardess:

"Good other noon, (good afternoon) Ladies and the German (gentlemen).
This is your cheap purser(stewardess) Wang Lui speaking.

On behalf of China Sudden (southern) Airlines, I would like to welcome you on board our Bowling (Boeing)seben tee seben (seven three seven)from Shenzhen to Qingtao.
Members of my crew speak Chinese and other languages that you do not know (?!!).

It is a great pressure (pleasure) serving you to die (today).
Should you need any resistance (assistance) during the fright, peace do pest (press) the call button. I and my gals are available to make you feel comfortable.
Meanwhile, the airkwaft (aircraft) is going to fry (fly). Peace shit (sit)upright and keep you belt tightly farsened (fastened) until dinner is served at five dirty (thirty) p.m.

Hope you would enjoy your fright (Flight) with us. Funk kill (Thank you)."

Really respect their dedication and commitment to make the Beijing Olympic Games 2008 a big success!

Durian GANJA!

2008-07-25T09:29:00.005+08:00

Haha.
talk about durian buffet.
some interesting convo happen at cell outing,
" u've gotta try durian ganja!"
" how does it taste like?"

hmmm...

yummmmmmmmyyyyyyy......

2008-07-09T09:28:00.000+08:00

dare to fail

2008-06-23T11:54:00.003+08:00

TODAY's heavvvvyy lesson ;))

Last sat,we had a 11 year old guest who recited word-for-word, NIV from Matthew 5-7.
It was amazing.
No pause, stammer - - it was just PERFECT!

Her testimony,touched me most:
The day of her piano exam, instead of presenting a flawless musical piece, she somehow fumbled.

The crisp of her testimony:
we cannot stop mistakes but we can learn from it & move on.

It is uncessary to delve into what could have taken place when we can look into what can we learn and move on from there.

Dare to dream BIG.
Dare to fail.
Dare to move on.

"Far better it is to dare mighty things,
to win glorious triumphs,
even though checkered by failure,
than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much because they live in the gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat."

--Theodore Roosevelt

Creeeeeepy bloggers ;p

2008-06-12T13:12:00.004+08:00

Updates :Creepy bloggers

New jargon for today?

"experiencialism" instead of knowledge

Source: The Epistemologial Inadequacies of Experientialism
Mere experience--solely,
in and of itself--
is inadequate and cannot verify a religion, or religious, metaphysical, or mundane truth claims. Thus, the experience based epistemology of experientialists is fraught with failings. There are numerous problems with this perspective. Craig S. Hawkins The Epistemological Inadequacies of Experientialism

Needless to say , most Christian bloggers tend to 'spiritualize' changes set in their church's circle.These tendacies are prone to their unresolved personal conflicts with people, family and themselves.

their search do not include valid, weighty search of truth.
they love to pass on
"christian" hype than 'applicable' materials of - -truth.
grow deep in own search for theological matters.

stay away from creeeeepppyyy bloggersssssssss.

.....woooooooooo aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.....

amateur work

2008-06-09T00:11:00.004+08:00

vancouver film school

"http://www.youtube.com/v/9hC46muG2r8&hl=en">

Gerbera daisies

2008-06-05T10:51:00.013+08:00

The meanings of gerbera daisies stem from those attributed to the general daisy family. These meanings include innocence and purity, and daisies are also a classic symbol of beauty. However, the gerbera variety holds an added meaning of cheerfulness, which stems from the assortment of colors available. An assorted bouquet of gerbera daisies can lift the spirit and sending one is an ideal way to brighten someone’s day
................................................................................

Thank you for the 3 white gerbera daisies ;P
* muacks!

its never enuf

2008-05-30T10:46:00.003+08:00

wondered how anything you did was just.." insufficient " ?
its hard when one strive to do their best in making things better..
sometimes it may just turn out - -worse. so what will you hold on to when its just neverrrrr enough?

guess its easier to view how YOU initiate your conduct, deeds , words, actions and from there its ezier to abandon what seemingly never enough in other's view.
one on being consistent of what makes you.

choked

2008-05-21T13:51:00.007+08:00

Somehow or another we've been pushed to the end of a cliff of agility, and its incredible how a crafty game can steer an individual's aim, direction, focus & decision in just a matter of seconds. choices for one to live

A blissful life through an aim for freedom,choked by demands of community.

or

Choking demands of community with an aim for freedom through a blissful life?

choked?

surreal

2008-05-06T10:36:00.010+08:00

wow!
its been for weeks & months ive tried to grasp what is happening around me but i just cant.been there? finally the mysteries are unfolding but yet
on the other end, its just so - - out of this world!

the absence of those thrill,random moments,leaves one hanging in mid-air and so wanting for more.but then tilting to steep ends of the measuring rod, you getha see cheaters,gamblers trotting their wits through politics, friends & enemies.
a hopeless lil' bunch of crap-pers dont you think?

nevertheless, im really enjoying every bit of this surreal walk :P
accompanied by unfathomable sentiment & jewels that are made of amazing stories.

- - j o u r n a l s - -

2008-04-30T10:08:00.005+08:00

a crib we loose ourselves to pen down uncertain feelings, gossips, dramas & long
auditions of group meetings,funn-y, lame, exciting, melancholic, dull etc characters we had to meet in earning our trusts.

some individuals left their lurve bites while others avenged to meet us where 'it' so called began.

hmm... journals . our best friend and enemy.

the most exciting journey for me started when i came back from the states in which i had the opportunity to balance out the boring familiar work routines,and venture into the new exciting and random grounds of crimes ;P
don't most of us do?

journals.

CHINA ready for the OLYMPICs!

2008-04-25T11:22:00.022+08:00

...WOOO HOOO hahahahhahahah!

jive

2008-04-15T10:37:00.004+08:00

....jive jive jive

pressure eh?
here's a lesson to remember :

" w h a t e v e r"

When people are watching your every move,
parroting your conversations (maybe plagiarizing your blog..losers eheh)
expecting an outstanding conduct or speech out of you in which they themselves fail to live up to,
and mimicking from every hem of your clothes to the very strand of your hair,

...here's a video for ya.

enough is enough.
reserve your brain space for worth while moments than wasting it for their nuisance.
hahah
enjoy!

Whatttevveerr!!! :P

2008-04-15T10:17:00.003+08:00

"where dreams do come true"- - DisneyLand..Do they?

2008-04-08T10:56:00.005+08:00

Starring:
Katherine Heigl, James Marsden, Malin Akerman, Edward Burns, Judy Greer, Melora Hardin
Genre: Romantic Comedy

........haaappyyy endings!
Dont we all like them?

what weights good or bad plots in a story?
...Critics!
They have been always been our arbiters of ethnicity, the ultimate interpreters of intellectual dialogue.

Sadly most of us have not spend time understanding how perilious it may be when we choose to set in one's views and not weighing the reality of consequences on others.

heres what christian today writes in their toprated material :) ENJOY!
http://www.christianitytoday.com/movies/special/toprated.html

27 dresses:
http://www.christianitytoday.com/search/?query=27+dresses

Crust for film critics:
As the late critic Kingsley Amis put it:
"If you can't annoy somebody, there's little point in writing."

Whether critics are irritants or masters of elucidation, opinions still matter.
But no one is respected simply because of the authority of the institution they write for. The Web isn't the enemy of critical thinking. The land of a million blogs is a medium brimming with opinion. What's different is the reader gets to decide whose opinion matters the most. It's a big adjustment, but maybe it's time critics, like many artists, realize they should pay more attention to their audience.
..Los Angeles Times, April 8th, Patrick Goldstein

stalkerazzi

2008-03-28T13:25:00.004+08:00

BEWARE OF THEM.
THEY CARRY DEADLY VIRUS in their mouths.. haha
heres some tips surviving paparazzis or stalkerazzis in your life :P
enjoy!
#tip 7 is quite interesting.

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Stalkerazzi is a portmanteau of stalker and "paparazzi" and as the name implies signifies those whose techniques tend toward invading personal space and privacy although as some do make a living at this it can be interpreted as just doing a job. The term has gained usage in reference to popular culture figures like celebrities and people made famous through media and news events.

From popular translation for Paparazzis/stalkerazzis :
KEPOCIs are broadcasters of nuisance, lack of attention and suckers to booze their esteem through rumours, gossips & uses techniques that usually leaves the victim obligated to say "no". Loves politics & can "man"- -euver truths for lies without remorse.

heres from Uncyclopedia & some interesting tips:
When cannibalism was outlawed in 1954, the Paparazzi tribe was forced to resort to alternate methods of soul consumption. While before, they were able to absorb the life essence of their foes by eating their flesh, they were left after the cannibalism ban with no legal means of maintaining the life essence status quo. In 1956, however, as unrest among the tribe threatened to destroy it from within, Federico Fellini, a highly respected elder, discovered that the camera had the ability to steal a victim's soul without physically harming their body, thus providing a comparatively simple and legal means for the Paparazzi tribe to uphold its traditions and feed its children. (The children are responsible for providing their own beverages, however. Two-liter bottles of soda are popular; their favorites are Big Red, Dr. Pepper, an Orange Crush, the same favorites as Black People. If someone has ice, all the better.)

The probability of surviving a Paparazzi attack is very low.
If you follow theese tips you just might live.

Tip #1: Ignore them.

Tip #2: Don't act suspicious.

Tip #3: Don't talk to them.

Tip #4: Don't try to attack them. (Brittney Spears once tried this with an umbrella and you remember what happened to her.)

Tip #5: Keep moving.

Tip #6: Don't go into your car untill you leave, and when you do, drive away slowly.

Tip #7: When driving away, resist the urge to run one of them over.

Tip #8: Don't be out for to long or to short.

Tip #9: Absolutely, whatever you do, do not ever have a baby bump.

Tip #10: Don't live in Hollywood, Beverly Hills, or Los Angeles.

sweeeets!

2008-03-19T09:56:00.006+08:00

Bible look up
Proverbs 16:24 (New International Version)
Pleasant words are a honeycomb,
sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.

1 Corinthians 15:33
Do not be misled: "Bad company corrupts good character."

hmmmmmm.....
many sweet things has been filling laps of siesta lately
here are some highlights of the month.

SWEET TOOTH
definately interesting to have sweet-tooth :)baskin robbin's rum & raisin is a sure thumbs-up!but nothing beats the good affordable oreos McFlurry at Mackers.. YUMMY!

GREAT COMPANY
Other 'sweet delicacies' that we constantly savour is being with a great company, experiences & recording memorable events..a good friend of mine commented that no matter how sucky u may be in an event,so long the company is nice, it just doesnt bug. :) So true

TIME & MONEY
another adds to the comment:time seems more precious than money.
time is life.
money is an object.

SCENT
source: exploring the psychology of scent by Kristen cole

Scent can sum to the whole picture too.
People generally do not give much thought to their sense of smell beyond the pungent odor of a durian or of baking of big apple bagles. Given the choice to lose a big toe or the sense of smell, said Herz, the responses are split down the middle. People would choose the big toe, she said.

But those who lose their sense of smell because of accident or illness also report a loss of emotional richness and, over time, a loss of emotional intensity toward life, according to Rachel Herz. Experiences are flatter, they report.

Herz studies many components of scent-triggered memories. How does the emotional intensity of reaction to a scent compare to the emotional intensity of a memory triggered by a visual cue or word? How accurate is a memory triggered by scent, and how does context influence the perception of odors?

Researchers know that odors don't trigger memories that are any more accurate than the memories triggered by other stimuli, but odors do trigger memories that are more emotional.

So since sweet life long delicacies involves,
great company & time, scent - - are you at the right place,with the right people and the right scent ? - -sweeeet!

slackers

2008-03-02T23:06:00.005+08:00

it is getting weirder & weirder when ministry reach-within-ministry.
how small can we be?
what is pioneering when expansion is some mere schemes & plans of temporal promotion?
dignity? least on the list.
funny how the out come would be .
we hear about it in and out"sowing and reaping". Now that would be an interesting sight if this continues.
more distorted growth & stench of some fungi!
my pity to the workers involved in these damp places.

why slack when theres so much to give?
so many new ones to discover and new platforms for growth & expansion.
Small thinkers? or lazy workers?
pure slackers :P

COLD silence

2008-02-29T10:04:00.003+08:00

Cold silence breaks the noise in my heart.
Where places for'shelter' turned into dens of violence&control.
Road blocks everywhere . No where to run.
Resistence. Menace.Tension.

What is 'hope' when great-visionary messages sold at pulpits fail to see reality
through broken lenses infront of them?

Unsafe cribs, wrapped in dirty blankets surrounded by practitioners of violence, hate & murder.

Building a facet for the world to see how noble we can be through our beliefs?
Accrediting pins of achievement on the uniform?
Medals of honor or horror?

.. ONE thing I know.Christ died for something..
CHANGE is COMING.

Reflecting the song from Jars of Clay -
Liquid
From the album Jars Of Clay

Arms nailed down
Are you tellin me something?
Eyes turned out
Are you looking for someone?

This is the one thing
The one thing that I know

Blood stained brow
Are you dying for nothing?
Flesh and blood
Is it so elemental?

This is the one thing
The one thing that I know

Blood stained brow
He wasn't broken for nothingArms nailed down
He didn't die for nothing

This is the ONE THING
The one thing that I know

colors

2008-02-27T09:27:00.019+08:00

Its funny how colors tells the mood,occasion and personality of a person.
"feeling blue...hot...etc,"
Colors have symbolism and color meanings that go beyond ink.

For eg. :
Cool Color Meanings (calming): Blue, Green, Turquoise, Silver
Warm Color Meanings (exciting): Red, Pink, Yellow, Gold, Orange
Mixed Cool/Warm Color Meanings: Purple, Lavender, Green, Turquoise
Neutral Color Meanings (unifying): Brown, Beige, Ivory, Gray, Black, White

here is some interesting article by David Johnson on Color Psychology

Black is the color of authority and power. It is popular in fashion because it makes people appear thinner. It is also stylish and timeless. Black also implies submission. Priests wear black to signify submission to God. Some fashion experts say a woman wearing black implies submission to men. Black outfits can also be overpowering, or make the wearer seem aloof or evil. Villains, such as Dracula, often wear black.

White Brides wear white to symbolize innocence and purity. White reflects light

and is considered a summer color. White is popular in decorating and in fashion because it is light, neutral, and goes with everything. However, white shows dirt and is therefore more difficult to keep clean than other colors. Doctors and nurses wear white to imply sterility.

Red The most emotionally intense color, red stimulates a faster heartbeat and breathing. It is also the color of love. Red clothing gets noticed and makes the wearer appear heavier. Since it is an extreme color, red clothing might not help people in negotiations or confrontations.
Red cars are popular targets for thieves. In decorating, red is usually used as an accent. Decorators say that red furniture should be perfect since it will attract attention.

The most romantic color, pink, is more tranquilizing. Sports teams sometimes paint the locker rooms used by opposing teams bright pink so their opponents will lose energy.

Blue The color of the sky and the ocean, blue is one of the most popular colors. It causes the opposite reaction as red. Peaceful, tranquil blue

causes the body to produce calming chemicals, so it is often used in bedrooms. Blue can also be cold and depressing. Fashion consultants recommend wearing blue to job interviews because it symbolizes loyalty. People are more productive in blue rooms. Studies show weightlifters are able to handle heavier weights in blue gyms.

Green Currently the most popular decorating color, green symbolizes nature. It is the easiest color on the eye and can improve vision. It is a calming, refreshing color. People waiting to appear on TV sit in "green rooms" to relax. Hospitals often use green because it relaxes patients. Brides in the Middle Ages wore green to symbolize fertility. Dark green is masculine, conservative, and implies wealth. However, seamstresses often refuse to use green thread on the eve of a fashion show for fear it will bring bad luck.

Yellow Cheerful sunny yellow is an attention getter. While it is considered an optimistic color, people lose their tempers more often in yellow rooms, and babies will cry more. It is the most difficult color for the eye to take in, so it can be overpowering if overused. Yellow enhances concentration, hence its use for legal pads. It also speeds metabolism.

PurpleThe color of royalty, purple connotes luxury, wealth, and sophistication. It is also feminine and romantic. However, because it is rare in nature, purple can appear artificial.

Brown Solid, reliable brown is the color of earth and is abundant in nature. Light brown implies genuineness while dark brown is similar to wood or leather. Brown can also be sad and wistful. Men are more apt to say brown is one of their favorite colors.

Now that you know, what color is on you now? :))

lurrrrvvveee

2008-02-14T09:57:00.007+08:00

lurve in the air ?

Erotic love, Courtly love ,Greek love ,Religious love ,Erotic love ,Platonic love ,Familial love ,Puppy love , Romantic love,Unrequited love, problematic love, ...

Roots :
FEB 14 are in ancient Roman festival of Lupercalia, a fertility celebration commemorated annually on February 15. Pope Gelasius I recast this pagan festival as a Christian feast day circa 496, declaring February 14 to be St. Valentine's Day.
according to the Catholic Encyclopedia, there were at least three early Christian saints by that name.

One was a priest in Rome, another a bishop in Terni, and of a third St. Valentine
almost nothing is known except that he met his end in Africa. Rather astonishingly, all three Valentines were said to have been martyred on Feb. 14.

Most scholars believe that the St. Valentine of the holiday was a priest who attracted the disfavor of Roman emperor Claudius II around 270.
source://wikipedia.en
LEGEND 1
According to one legend, Claudius II had forbid marriage for young men, claiming that bachelors made better soldiers. Valentine continued to secretly perform marriage ceremonies but was eventually apprehended by the Romans and put to death.

LEGEND 2
Another legend has it that Valentine, imprisoned by Claudius, fell in love with the daughter of his jailer. Before he was executed, he allegedly sent her a letter signed "from your Valentine." Probably the most plausible story surrounding St. Valentine is one not focused on Eros (passionate love) but on agape (Christian love): he was martyred for refusing to renounce his religion.

MARKINGS?
Embrace it as an opportunity to arouse situations?
Is it a day of remorse, sweet reminiscence?

When is ready or so it desires?
“First we make our habits, then our habits make us.”
Charles C. Noble

SOLOMON:
3 His left arm is under my head
and his right arm embraces me.

4 Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you:
Do not arouse or awaken love
until it so desires.
New International Version

3-4 Imagine! His left hand cradling my head,
his right arm around my waist!
Oh, let me warn you, sisters in Jerusalem:
Don't excite love, don't stir it up,
until the time is ripe—and you're ready.
The Message

s i g n b o a r d s

2008-02-10T02:51:00.001+08:00

Just the other day ..a good friend of mine reminded me on what we spoke --living a life that paints a direction - -like signboards

What signs do we point to?
Are they direct or misleading?
What does it mean?

My guess for now : we change our signboards from time to time.

At times we protest, stop , move on , make u-turns or stay pointing a direction.

Sign boards leaves the people one decision:
- to break the law the sign suggests or to follow it.

What signs are we putting up now?

c o n s c i e n c e ?

2008-01-26T01:44:00.000+08:00

Why does this Voice contends with every Thoughts?

It stalks you in that cold alley of mind with no witnesses to testify against it.
No one can see it and yet apparent when situation turns up AGAINST you.
Every niche of a second,sparks the bolts of Gloom.

Knowing it lurked the last time from a blind corner,so you stand ready to oppose.With clinched fist, all set in welcoming its attack, in that split moment, stale whispers from Positivity sets in.On the other side,daunted lyrics of Despair tuned up,louder and louder it gets till it overwhelmed Enthusiasm to fight. In the midst of confussion,the opponent gave great blows of Discouragement,Anxiety, and smacked down with sharp edges from Intimidation.

..left helplessly at the cold alley, suction to reality cuts in.
The Bruised unwinds the clock, Momentum sets the round for the next match and Choices begun.

Its not as easy as Phillippians 4:8
Think again.

HEAD above water

2008-01-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

wondered how to stay blameless to the end of days,when all manuals to gear a good citizen fails?

heres a clue: Philippians 2:14-16

Rock bottom situations keeps our head above water.
contradicting?
NOT :)

2008-01-17T13:18:00.000+08:00

spooky

2008-01-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

"is that You God?"
This query exists in every Christian for the longest time!
And yet we can never come to a concluding statement.Interesting .The Bible ,a finished written work as it seems ;eaves an unfinished work where it continues to illuminates every part of the readers, gives new insights,rebukes and builds every spiritual ligaments in us as it is being read.

TIME.
Is the asset to distinguish His and ours.
Knowing someone is not an instant bite in a sachet.Instead its an investment of time, effort and interest .

Similiarly God is a person.
Are we madly in love with His interests? or Him?
Would we live sacrificially as He did? (Rom 15:1-7)
Do we all ever come to concluding end of knowing who He is?

heres a link for interest as to KNOWING HIS VOICE and OUR VOICE.
Look it up.

http://www.gotquestions.org/voice-of-God.html

psychdelic moods

2008-01-16T12:34:00.003+08:00

Har!
weirdos weirdos weirdos
dont they amuse you?
one minute they are high, one minute they are low
was in class yesterday and we had unique individuals!seriously unique!

dont we all have them in our routine daily 'life-classes'?

Today's bite: CONSISTENCY.
the best ground to stick to are those who are consistent in their actions..believe YOU me.haha.Otherwise welcome to PSYCHDELIC world.

here's something to amuse ya.i hope..hehe
Enjoy

2008-01-16T12:34:00.002+08:00

BREAK free

2008-01-15T03:00:00.000+08:00

stuck in-betweens?
there are times we are stuck in between truth & plots.

the difference between these two : integrity.

how often do we give thought to stand on what is just, true , noble and right or even as we read in phil 4:8 if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy to meditate on?

most fall in traps to feed their insecurity through forms of plots, strategies, manipulation and worst still politics. Definately a fine line for survival in the marketplace or even in peers, company but underneath lies dark secrets of pain, bitter-sweet experiences.

Breaking free from in-between situations can be very tough.
In battles there will be casualities and for a soldier to come our from a war without any form of scar (mentally or physically)would be the joke for the battalions.
what will you choose ? integrity or plots?

7 The scoundrel's methods are wicked,
he makes up evil schemes
to destroy the poor with lies,
even when the plea of the needy is just.

8 But the noble man makes noble plans,
and by noble deeds he stands.
Isaiah 32:8

shout it out?

2008-01-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

listen up or shut up?
when was the last time you wished someone listens to you? your views?
it was taught that the best communication is actually to listen to what the other person is saying to you..but wouldnt that be unfair to yourself?

well we have heard countless times on the BLAME game.
I thought you said,she says, he says,we said.. come to think of it does it matter who say or not? we should look at what can be done or do.

interesting glimpse to look at for now:
how much we have contributed in the whole conversation.
heard of backing words with action?
perhaps its best to keep our words few?

Ecclesiastes 5:2
Do not be quick with your mouth, do not be hasty in your heart to utter anything before God. God is in heaven and you are on earth, so let your words be few.

reset

2008-01-11T10:23:00.000+08:00

WOW!!you found me!

hahah im back! haha not sure how frequent i would b able to blog
anyways,been idle observing behaviours, reading, watching and hehe..watching you:)

gosh where to start?
loads of happennings piling to our unpenned life-journals and my time away from blogging has been interesting..

some ..having to face hyped up term of emo-ing, lame, psychotic and definately a lot 'wanna-be's.hehe.
- all famous , noticed and i mean noticed haha
- all secure (you shine!seriously a lot of eyes are on ya.keep it up wei)
- all hidden/ mysterious & unnoticed
- all "i dontknow" & i dont care
some blogs are plain-o self promo..and others you would just fast foward?
there are interesting ones too that provokes thoughts and some savy ones.
heres the updates:
HOT, CHILLED, COOL and plain blur.
random chats so far :*guys : hot chicks? hot babes?*chats for girls: hot guys ? cool ones? any of these familiar to you?

" any hot chicks in that church? ours plain dead!" , "got hot guys meh?", "yerr!!!! you like that one?!", " you are deperate man!"

interesting.what is hot and what is cool?
some have sets standards higher, some lower and some just reset.
new beginnings , new trends, new look , new style?
for me its all a reset.
All over again.what about you ?

sniff of the day

2007-04-05T14:01:00.000+08:00

..There are many scent as we journey life and one that catches most is stench.hehe strangely odor attracts more than perfume...This ties again to our 1st " mindset" .

so true that when Jesus said, which is easier? to say your sins are forgiven or " get up and walk" ? (luke 5:23, mark 10:25 there are others too..) many times we are guilty of passing judgments to people around us than broadening our mindset to kingdom living.

one who pens this is ..one too guilty as charged :P

one sniff we should ask ourself is " have i pour my most expensive jar of perfume on Him who deserves our wages, our hardships and our ALL, our repentance , our tears ... "

are we smelly? or are we scented to His fragrance? heheh that i am still bathing...Bathing in His showers of mercy and definately wiping scales of judgments OFF my eyes.. then only we smell good.

p.r.i.d.e

2007-04-05T13:58:00.000+08:00

Pride is full of : Problems, Restlessness, Insecurity. Destructive & Exhausive.
* dedicated to ALLLLLLLLL leaders & leaders in the making.

There are many times we try to do things seemingly the best or right ...hehe but it is just not good enough. One thing for sure is PRIDE crept in the way of all your efforts .Plus being sandwiched with bad flavours of dislikes by "commentators", worst still from your very own sheeps..more so called goats, don't you think?

What are we to do about it? whine, complain ,cry?"spare the rod and spoil the child?" concept would work?- - ahh hemm.. NOT

If so we are in this ditch, one way of climbing out is our willingness to :Die
Cliche feedbacks : why not humility ? why end with "die" ?
Its not giving up the challenge but giving up :
entertaining problems that is piling, the restlessness of attending to ever " i want more of you" expectation cycle issues on their insecurity

rebuilding destructive efforts consciously or unconsciously by insecure sheeps
exhausive effort of building the characters in them & learn to REST in Him. One day there will come a time of FRUIT tasting. Then they will understand the correct way of planting, sadly for them , " all over again" with their teacher a.k.a you.

the question is : are we willing to repeat all the teachings again? Your answer will determine the outcome of them.
Mine : Yup.

If Christ went for 1 fr the 99, if just one is caught in the mouth of the lion, he will fight to redeem, what less are you from them? so lets be immitators of Him.

Jesus healed many yet they joined in the crowds , " crucify Him!"
He responded in death : To His rights & efforts. Trusting the best out from the time frame He had with the people..the best will come out from it.

Don't give up in hoping for their return, a regeneration, change.
God is never far from refurbishing His house. He did mention about making disciplines not entertaining disciples..
our role in keeping them is always packaged with burial of self rights because the resurrection of new breeds is coming. Now you can breathe :-)

Col 3:23

remnant of godly sorrows

2007-04-05T10:07:00.000+08:00

" s i g h "

judging judging judging..

felt whenever you stand with someone you just wanna stay away?
your guts tells you , gosh this person stinks?

many at times we look at only one point of view : how people will change , act, think &judge like us. pride is the beginning of downfall . are you tired of being drained hanging with proud people?

familiar with these?
-------------------------
they never think they are wrong..
they seem to be always - -right.
their face is always craft in lines of sarcasm and silent voices in they minds are all out to wit, laugh and disrespect you?
they judge and condemn everything that moves ..(sadly even the very ones who feeds them )

we have heard of too many casualities of judas in the midst of our leaders .

ungrateful and greedy.

but even before we streamline these judas or so called religious teachers why not start first with us? what kind of judas' value could we be adapting consciously/unconsciously
- what has rob our focus from God's kingdom to our kingdom?

notice how God is not in the business of condemning but correcting.
He rebukes .He dont retrenched his own creation..haha..

when will there be a rise of peters than judas?
when will the time of repentance come?
how can revival come when there is no repentance.. how can we shout "repent" when we ourselves didnt check our very attitudes that stink?

teachers are always sharing than keeping "reserved" teachings of God.
we sing , "tell the world that Jesus lives"

how to tell?
when the ultimate purpose of sharing for some is to elevate self than shout out loud credit to Jesus who is the ONE brought about their change?
why condemn His creation, the people around them?
when He repeatedly taught us compassion?

how can He be shared when the very nails they plunge in their teachings or preaching per se are fruits of hate , dislikes than "compassion" and "repentance".

where has our focus steered to ?

thank God for our senior pastor who is a gracious father and his rebukes has brought about changes lives of many,including mine, but somehow there are a few judas seating in the crowd waiting to nail him out for the pride in which is eating them up by bits.

my question to leaders out there is this: have we checked the times of despair :

what went wrong, what have i done wrong God to produce offspring like these?
the best teaching ever and I quote from Ps Henry is " 2 nations are in the same womb" . God is gracious and slow in anger. all in all , another great papa Ps Charles shared his thoughts :

circumstances helped in shaping character in built by God
waiting to be activated.

many times groanings in my spirit for opened spiritual eyes.
to see that the more they are in service , the more they are to give than "reserved" God given insight. (Thank God they werent chosen to write the inspired words of God.imagine what kind of cult it would be? gosh ! )

its sickening to know believers are all out in their armour, polishing they armour, stand out in a crowd and forgetting the people with them..they stink in their armour.
do we stink in our armour ? are we questioning ourselves , checking ourselves first before labelling ourselves as imitators of Christ?

do we still dare to condemn or judge others in our "preachings" cos when a mirror is put upfront: they themselves are the one who is holding the stone than being so called teacher presenting preachings which they have not experience the pain of being stoned?

groans of a leader is always present crying for change not only in others but THEMSELVES. there are times we need to go on our knees . check ourself first. have we checked what are these groanings?

can we present them to God?
the anwer is : YES! thankfully , phew!

Godly sorrows brings about repentance.

God is gracious > > patience is one of the tools God is forming in our lives when all the hardships come. in Ps Charles Popson's book, " God is not finish with you" connotes that we have to go through wilderness seasons. if we arent careful we might just think it is our PLACE OF PROMISE, it is a deception of the enemy.

let us not be like the Israelites thinking they will never enter their promise land.
always grumbling and complaining.
Let us not give up or be weary in doing good.
let us be assured of this: God is able to steer all channels of challenges to channels of growth in our lives.. we need to check our attitudes. we need to humble ourselves and turn our ways and start having compassion than judgments lenses.

what remnant remains in you?
good? or otherwise?