to be grouchy or not?

tired-tired-tiredddddd of ....chores, assignments, duties, exams...sigh.....
few more weeks to go and woohooo!!! no more grouchy-days.so sucky when all your work turns you over to only more co$tly adjustments.



oh well some days aren't a breather so why pay so much attention to its gloominess when there will be days we shape the happier-endings?

- - guess .. its a 'grouchy not ' :P

here are some tips from : lover,besties, websites..
which may work out on grouchy days..

1.Shuffle. hahaha...

2.Treat yourself with something cold & sweeeeet. eg. ice-cream!... " I scream!"

3. Sleep.Shut everyone, everything downnnn.z z z z zzzzzzz

4.Jog back to good memories.“relive” those experiences. Memory works in that the more you think about something, the more it becomes ingrained in your mind.

5.Exercise! it releases endorphins which immediately makes you feel better. It gives you a long term healthy habit to go to whenever you feel unhappy.

6.MOoooovies!Silly shows helps. :))))

7.Look forward for a new tomorrow. :P

you do the math :p

"Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted." -Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

Amazed

Found an old vid in U-tube
Kevin Jonas' testimony :)emoooooo

25.09.08

hmmph... 25th September 2008

got a call that he will need to get the cyst removed in University Hospital..bulk text messages were sent out to family members, uth church, cell, church, pastors, leaders to pray for him.

Text msg:

Prayer request for Emmanuel: Goin4an operation tis fri,(26/9) to remove a cyst fr his back -Uth Church

thurs : u0620
it is sad to see quite a number of elderly people came on their own to check in for surgery.
there was this elderly 'Indian' man, he went up and down the hall on his own (though i admired his independence, i think it would be better if there was another person to accompany him).
..at one time, he had gone else where & the doc called for him. thats how we knew he is a *singh*

doc :

"Kak mana Juswan Singh ?"

nurse :
" 'Just-One' Singh tadak, cuma Pradip Singh saja!"

the funny thing is this : when they call for Pradip Singh, an old lady raised her hand.
The son look at her and said ,

" You are not Pradip Singh la ma.."

hahahahahah..anyways while waiting for *u0620, a doc or practioner (i duno la -- but she looks inexperience wei!) she drew like ...a lot of blood fr Emm. worst still, she spilled a BIG drop on the floor!
*bore-dughh!*aduhhhhh.

we waited for approximately more than 7hours just to get to *u6020 (*level 6, bed 20) but then with Emm, its NEVER borin'. haha.. & so time pass quickly ;) so it wasnt that bad.

before Emm was told he had to puasa after midnite :

- Emm had to go for an x-ray,
- 3 surgeons checked his back for almost 7times?


finally after the longgggg wait, we finally got to *u0620

puaaaasaaaa fr midnite(fasting) till 3pm the next day (my my..)
knowing hospital food can be quite moderate in their seasoning, and since he can have ANYTHING :) b4 midnite got for him food,drinks , watermelons & some extras as he requested for his roomates.

'pradip singh' is the best. ( remember the singh in the beginning of the story?haha yups he ended in the same ward as Emm.) the fierce , macho looking guy some how cannot match with his voice!
he sounded like a transvestite!

heheheheh ...but then again hats off to the senior guy.

It aint diner till the man farts it all out.
Next to Emm's bed, is an Indian who got diagnosed with bone cancer and he cant move on his own.

dangerous man. very dangerous.

we were about to eat when , the stench, filled the entire ward.
- - he poo-ed.yerrrrrr!

the emergency button, alarmed the ' diaper team ' & whoever is able to move? - - to save themselves.

" ..please help.."
We feel for him. He had to be fed and bathed.
There was one time, he called for Emm.
The nurses did not attend to him so he called Emm to help him move his right leg up and down.
so Emm helped (lurve you loadssss)

4am (fri surgery day)
Thank God for 4am.

the bone cancer Indian man(i forgot his name) was cryin in pain cos the nurses were rough when they cleaned him.

(very creeeeepyyy actually. you can hear screams from other wards during that time cos the nurses cleans up other patients as well who cannot move on their own..its really creepy & heartbreaking oso)



During that interval we couldn't sleep so I gave Emm some buns since breakfast is only served much later.

Breakfast hour arrived.
A nurse gave Emm a new instruction




hahah! gosh good thing he had a bun, a drink and so he was all ready to fast till time for surgery. what we didnt know was, again they changed the hour for surgery. it was pushed earlier to 12noon.







45mins ?
Emm was told that its only a minor surgery so .. he will be on anaesthesia from waist down but when they did an op on him, the surgeons found out there was more to a cyst... 7 cm long?! here's the thing.
im outside of the surgery room thinking its only 45 mins & he didnt come out.
Got so worried. went up to level 6 (the surgery room is on the 2nd floor) thinking that i missed him when he got out.
But *u0620 was empty~
so went down and waited.
3 hours passed . panicked i wanted to intercom the nurse in the surgical ward to update me on Emm's progress.
Just when i was about to press the intercom, "superman" got rolled out.
He was smiling.
What a relief!

Kicking in about 6hours time
The nurses were highlighted about Emm's open wound (yup it is not stitched up :P )
talk about
"superman" God is really gracious and awwweeesome
The doc highlighted to the nurses to give Emm , pain killer jabs cos Emm would feel the pain after the 3rd hour from the time he got out of his anaesthetic condition, and the anaesthetic will only completely wear out on the 6th hour.

so i was believing for a miracle.
sending bulk smses , to request Christian family members and friends to pray for him.

miracle did happen!
he didnt need the pain killer and not only the surgeons were surprised... you can imagine the nurses coming in and out (approximately 7 times asking if he needed a jab or not)
superman indeed ;)

Among other testimonies, still the one thing I thank God for is His presence with Emm and me through the hours of pain, laughter, worries and indeed, when you can't hold on to tangible help, you can always hold on His promises that nothing can separate His love for us.



Lurve you sweetie.

cute , faithful, cuddly...friend

dogs vs cats. in my view, dogs are friendlier , faithful compared to ..
ahh hemm snobbish, lazy cats...

But....

my views have changed when i met this cat.
i have to admit, this cat is not the ordinary. haha supa-active, lurves being manja-ed, clean, smart (toilet trainned! whoa im impressed!understands human language and yess..

this cat is healthy & 'fit'(there i said it.haha)

cute , faithful, cuddly... friend :)

lurve ya

man shall NOT only live by thosai and idli alone, but by appam too!

...past few posts have been food eh?
cooking is definitely an art and an expression to show your love or narrates 'a story' :)
i know this part of the story: Sri Lankan & South indian cuisine - - my fav!woohoo!!!

my bf's mom not only can make great thosai , idli but also nice appams!
nothin beats home cook food and freshly made appams.
i lurve the thin crispy crepe-like edges and it is my first time trying 'egg appams' :) served with milk...reminds me of oreos with milk! haha
pic of appam with egg.so nicely done eh?

like i said, 'she rawks!'

Appams, appams, appams... :)

man shall by NOT only live by thosai alone but by idli too!

pic 1. Idli :p yum yum!!!

pic2: Green chutney! (far right : Fish Curry)

hehe.... man NOT live by thosai alone! but by idli too!

cooking is an art.

not only is my bf's mom good in making thosai, she makes awesome idlis!

idli served with2 side dishes: hot green coconut chutney (is like a consistency of salsa ) & fish curry.

now now, ive not tasted fish curry this good before.

Lurveeeee spicy food! ..oh and the cook!

muacks!

fix it.fixing it.in the fix.

devo, devo , devo.

the write ups below is my devotion today.
felt like a punching bag yesterday when cornered to an edge of helpless situation..the condition of our nation and individuals.was browsing through meanings, exegesis, text & trying to understand the text for verse 9-12 and here's what we can learn in times of repentance of a nation.

the choice to ignore or making a difference.

Outline for Isaiah58 -66 :Everlasting Deliverance and Everlasting Judgment (chs. 58–66)
- False and True Worship (ch. 58) We were told that about 700 B.C.ago,Israel had fallen away. Despite the many calls issued by prophets sent by God to them to repent and to return to the Lord, the people of the land, for the most part ( just like most of us..) continued to ignore the righteousness and justice of God. Because of this, the nation would suffer great losses at the hands of cruel enemies.

the question is do we have a role to play in a big nation?

we hear many times one vote makes a difference.
one hope .
one decision.
one vision with
one major effect or an outcome for
one nation. Here is a conclusion i have drawn from my devo for verses 9-12

spiritual renewal in God.

coping in a shift far beyond the norm.
we should opt to reflect on our role in times of shifting beyond the norm...which weighs our "spiritual standing"inbeing renewed : passively or actively

True Story
Man A, cannot 'drive' using a normal car ever since his tragic accident and so should he decided to drive on the road one day, he would have to buy a 'special' car built for disabled people. ..the thing is , this guy did not want to purchase a car to cope with his driving desire. he just like the idea that he can still "drive" on the road.
Hes an active member with a passive role.

renewal in God forms 2 routes :
-for active
-for passive

we have been in both routes. for some - -we have become extremely active. for some passive. however the main point for today's devo is not about being active or passive. its about recognizing age old behavioral patterns in our Christian walk or our role in times of shifting beyond the norm.

behaviors pointed in Isaiah about change to take place in our nation, we should begin to contribute in first a personal change and do away with :
1.yoke of oppression (look more into the context here for oppression)
2.pointing finger (blame game)
3.malicious talk (we are far better than them)

the conditional change is as follows :

'If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
with the pointing finger and malicious talk,
and if
you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,

then only we see the change as it cont's in verse 10 ..

then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.
The LORD will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.
Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins and will raise up the age-old foundations;
you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls,
Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.
Isaiah 58:9-12 NIV

so qualities for Today's devo in becoming more like Christ are:

(1) repairer of broken walls
(2)restorer of street with dwellings.

are we a generation of 'suckers 'or people living in ignorance during times of repentance?
or are we 'renewed, transformed , participants' making a difference for our generation during times of repentance?

..man shall live by thosai alone! woohooo!!!

chapri! thosee! thosa! pollo!.. thosha! thoseh!thosai!

woohoo!! NICE!

ah hemm...

Did you know that Thosai is rich in carbohydrates and protein?
my ..my ...my....i just had the most supa nice thosai made by my bf's mom.

she rawks!

Varieties..varieties .. varieties... for you thosai lovers out there!yum yum

• Egg -spread with an omelette.
• Chilli - chilli powder is spread on the thosai.
  
• Onion - chopped and sautéd onions are spread on the thosai.
  
• Ghee (thuppa/neyyi) dosa - ghee is used instead of oil while frying the thosai.
  
• Butter - butter is used instead of oil while frying thosai and a small amount on top of it while serving.
• Roast - the thosai is spread thinly and fried until crisp. * owh...i had this one:p
  
• Family roast - a long thosai which can be spread over 2 or 3 feet.
• Paper - a long and very thin delicate dosa which can be spread over 2 feet.
• Green - a thosai stuffed with fresh vegetables and mint chutney.
• Chow-chow - stuffed with (Indian flavored) Chinese noodles. *this one may b interesting eh?
  
• Cheese - stuffed with cheese.
• Masala -stuffed with spiced potatoes (famous in South India)

food ... food ... food
how you make one so loved, so full & contented.
woohoo! thosai !

banana test

There is a very, very tall coconut tree and there are 4 animals,
a LION , a CHIMPANZEE,a GIRAFFE and a SQUIRREL

who pass by.

They decide to compete to see who is the fastest to get a banana off the tree.
Who do you guess will win?
Your answer will reflect your personality. !

So think carefully and try and answer within 30 seconds

Got your answer?

Now scroll down to see the analysis.












If your answer is:



Lion = you're dull.

Chimpanzee = you're a moron.

Giraffe = you're a complete idiot.

Squirrel = you're just hopelessly stupid.

A COCONUT TREE DOESN'T HAVE BANANAS!
Obviously you're stressed and overworked. You should take some time off and relax!

left bare.

scenario 1.
what is left hidden aren't always kept silent.
even the dead, speaks! somehow, somewhere, your secrets are out and there's no way to take cover..spills from various 'frens' or whom you think is trust-worthy stabs right behind u, and then left aimlessly , wounded & bare.

it is best to think twice when intention to stir, create or "psyche"a situation (im referring to the "loud" ones haha)because somehow at the end of their story, what it seems to be the edited scenes in their convo may just turn against them as the highlight, headlines from their own past.

scenario 2.
you are taught to be optimistic and this mentality will fend you should you fall in the midst of accusation because nothing can beat the good image and standard you have progressively set...but then here's the twist. what was not told to you is that
the accusation do not come from the people you hate or the enemy. as cliche it seems:it is those whom you trust,work with and believe in.

all your dreams, hopes and encouragement for them turned into daggers and they are repeatedly thrown at you.

lies eventually formed-a *belief.. and that *belief eats you, alive.

hmmm left bare for experience? or plots? or a destined journey?

b * tch y , b*tch y...

our mind completes the sentence , to a particular, perceived meaning.as for me,ive been noticing the increase number of b*tch-y girls.

behavioural patterns:
- walk and talk 'loudly' about false / empty future engagements (to psyche the listeners to work or be on their side of the story.
- addicted /craves for attention
- in and out of mad 'crushes'
- gossips on something new that they made up just to create a convo..
- controlling & manipulative

the stench of lowwwwww self esteem issue led them to ride on false humility and often times they revert to "religiosity" for comfort.

so ..what we think, carries the meaning of the word.

in my view,these people aren't who they are,
if they don't deal with what they have become.

so... a lil experiment: did you see (*) as

(1)butch y

Butch and femme (also spelled fem; originally a French word for woman) are terms often used in the lesbian and gay subcultures to describe, respectively, masculine and feminine traits. - wikipedia

or

(2) bitch y

has long been in use to refer to a woman in contempt, as shown in an 1811 dictionary which describes bitch as "the most offensive appellation that can be given to an English woman, even more provoking than that of whore. - wikipedia

so .. it is true then that meaning to words is made up of what we want to read, see or believe it to be...

b*tch y , b*tch y .............................

..somebody's watchin' me...

haha hilarious!

hmmmmm ...'feels like ...somebody's watchin....?'



VERSION 1




VERSION 2

confuse

Met them?

Upfront: docile, seemingly innocent, but very sharp in advocating hidden stuffs Basically, anything that benefits the -'self'.The inability to stand on any side and the deep interests of twisted truths, sure make great them the best script writers :))

would they be the 'cowards'?

truths that may or may not surface: as to why they aren't as bold as they appear to be in taking on any sides,leads us only to think that it's simply because,such attempts is considered - - too much of an obvious 'statement'.

smart move? maybe.. but for some it is an unmerited value of self which disintegrates the morale..and eventually those cowardly value sinks in because of the choice in staying afloat in those Grey areas; leaving them feeling undecided & making sure that they are always safe in the hidden agendas , while leaving the rest around them - - confuse.

FUNK kill

Pre-take-off announcement on a China Southern Airlines Flight.

This is a true account of what was heard on a recent flight from Shenzhen to Qingtao.
Chinese Air Stewardess:

"Good other noon, (good afternoon) Ladies and the German (gentlemen).
This is your cheap purser(stewardess) Wang Lui speaking.

On behalf of China Sudden (southern) Airlines, I would like to welcome you on board our Bowling (Boeing)seben tee seben (seven three seven)from Shenzhen to Qingtao.
Members of my crew speak Chinese and other languages that you do not know (?!!).

It is a great pressure (pleasure) serving you to die (today).
Should you need any resistance (assistance) during the fright, peace do pest (press) the call button. I and my gals are available to make you feel comfortable.
Meanwhile, the airkwaft (aircraft) is going to fry (fly). Peace shit (sit)upright and keep you belt tightly farsened (fastened) until dinner is served at five dirty (thirty) p.m.

Hope you would enjoy your fright (Flight) with us. Funk kill (Thank you)."

Really respect their dedication and commitment to make the Beijing Olympic Games 2008 a big success!

Durian GANJA!

Haha.
talk about durian buffet.
some interesting convo happen at cell outing,
" u've gotta try durian ganja!"
" how does it taste like?"

hmmm...



yummmmmmmmyyyyyyy......

dare to fail

TODAY's heavvvvyy lesson ;))

Last sat,we had a 11 year old guest who recited word-for-word, NIV from Matthew 5-7.
It was amazing.
No pause, stammer - - it was just PERFECT!

Her testimony,touched me most:
The day of her piano exam, instead of presenting a flawless musical piece, she somehow fumbled.

The crisp of her testimony:
we cannot stop mistakes but we can learn from it & move on.

It is uncessary to delve into what could have taken place when we can look into what can we learn and move on from there.

Dare to dream BIG.
Dare to fail.
Dare to move on.

"Far better it is to dare mighty things,
to win glorious triumphs,
even though checkered by failure,
than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much because they live in the gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat."

--Theodore Roosevelt

Creeeeeepy bloggers ;p

Updates :Creepy bloggers

New jargon for today?

"experiencialism" instead of knowledge

Source: The Epistemologial Inadequacies of Experientialism
Mere experience--solely,
in and of itself--
is inadequate and cannot verify a religion, or religious, metaphysical, or mundane truth claims. Thus, the experience based epistemology of experientialists is fraught with failings. There are numerous problems with this perspective. Craig S. Hawkins The Epistemological Inadequacies of Experientialism

Needless to say , most Christian bloggers tend to 'spiritualize' changes set in their church's circle.These tendacies are prone to their unresolved personal conflicts with people, family and themselves.

their search do not include valid, weighty search of truth.
they love to pass on
"christian" hype than 'applicable' materials of - -truth.
grow deep in own search for theological matters.

stay away from creeeeepppyyy bloggersssssssss.

.....woooooooooo aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.....

amateur work

vancouver film school

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Gerbera daisies

The meanings of gerbera daisies stem from those attributed to the general daisy family. These meanings include innocence and purity, and daisies are also a classic symbol of beauty. However, the gerbera variety holds an added meaning of cheerfulness, which stems from the assortment of colors available. An assorted bouquet of gerbera daisies can lift the spirit and sending one is an ideal way to brighten someone’s day
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Thank you for the 3 white gerbera daisies ;P
* muacks!

its never enuf

wondered how anything you did was just.." insufficient " ?
its hard when one strive to do their best in making things better..
sometimes it may just turn out - -worse. so what will you hold on to when its just neverrrrr enough?

guess its easier to view how YOU initiate your conduct, deeds , words, actions and from there its ezier to abandon what seemingly never enough in other's view.
one on being consistent of what makes you.

choked

Somehow or another we've been pushed to the end of a cliff of agility, and its incredible how a crafty game can steer an individual's aim, direction, focus & decision in just a matter of seconds. choices for one to live

A blissful life through an aim for freedom,choked by demands of community.

or

Choking demands of community with an aim for freedom through a blissful life?

choked?

surreal

wow!
its been for weeks & months ive tried to grasp what is happening around me but i just cant.been there? finally the mysteries are unfolding but yet
on the other end, its just so - - out of this world!

the absence of those thrill,random moments,leaves one hanging in mid-air and so wanting for more.but then tilting to steep ends of the measuring rod, you getha see cheaters,gamblers trotting their wits through politics, friends & enemies.
a hopeless lil' bunch of crap-pers dont you think?

nevertheless, im really enjoying every bit of this surreal walk :P
accompanied by unfathomable sentiment & jewels that are made of amazing stories.

- - j o u r n a l s - -

a crib we loose ourselves to pen down uncertain feelings, gossips, dramas & long
auditions of group meetings,funn-y, lame, exciting, melancholic, dull etc characters we had to meet in earning our trusts.

some individuals left their lurve bites while others avenged to meet us where 'it' so called began.

hmm... journals . our best friend and enemy.

the most exciting journey for me started when i came back from the states in which i had the opportunity to balance out the boring familiar work routines,and venture into the new exciting and random grounds of crimes ;P
don't most of us do?

journals.

CHINA ready for the OLYMPICs!

...WOOO HOOO hahahahhahahah!